Pretty girl is suffering, while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about
She's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
Her killer instinct tells her to beware of evil men
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
It's the way
That he makes you cry
It's the way
That he in your mind
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love
- Mixed Verses Pretty girl by Sugarcult
Alex came to see me on sunday.. it was call we stayed up all night chatting and laughing. My mum wasn't exactly around
so no restriction of time. So anyway, his sister is recovering a bit he told me. I am so happy about that, made me smile, I did jump on him
and hugged him because I was so please and just generally happy.
um i think I need some help ... I have become addicted to sailor moon live action. what is wrong with me. I have to stop going on youtube, its making me get in contact with my inner child.
that wills me to watch these things lol. Everyone knows I already, for some wierd reason liked mercury in the cartoon, damn she is hot and evil in the live action version *tries to shut self up* and tuxedo Kamen (tuxedo mask) also known as mamoru ( darien)
is *drools* anyway no-one can take the piss out of me because he was a cartoon because now he is real so ner to you.
been also watching loads of ugly betty *shakes head* and kitchen confidential (show cracks me up). I dunno I think I should stop watching tv. it makes me into this obsessive I must watch next episode person.
And can abc please release Alias season 5 on dvd... some who haven't seen it are itching too. (you see what I mean)
I really feel in the mood for a mocha frappachino and its like 02:02 in the morning. Okay ever since I have started uni I have become coffee and coke hooked (well coke has always been there.. and no not the coke you sniff).
I think its because of lecturers and everytime after a lecture someone always mentions lets go and get a coffee. lol.So when I am doing my two days no sleep. that is the only thing that keeps me alive and awake.Okay and random dancing around my room
but that's it lol.
going to see the symbo boys play on wednesday *w00t* get to jump around. I felt bad last time. Andy told me to come, he put me on the guestlist and everything and because of things that week I forgot to turn up lol. So everyone remind me wednesday... gig.
No offence but how come African guys keep stalking me and telling me they want to marry me and for me to have their kids. They can take me to see their parents in all different parts of africa, one even said take me back to my home town. As far as I know, my home town is either london, u.k or Vieux-fort st.lucia.
I mostly have asian in me. its doesn't show because of my dad. Some people can tell though, because my hair is softer most of the time without relaxer, and my eyes look like they have eyeliner around them sometimes, when they don't.
Apparently my mum thinks that I am going to get married to a white guy. She has a "feeling" I was like oh little do you know. lol
my brother comes out of prison in a few days... dont know whether to be excited or to think oh hey bro when you going in again and leave me here with your crap to sort out.
OTHER UPDATES.
+ uni is having a ball lol. That should be eventful
- No money... running really low. Must get new job, must get it quickly. Student loan comes in 3 weeks... hold on I say for dear life.
- I want to go download, but I got better things to pay money for. I can't believe that brigade weren't invited to do download *shouts at them* YOU GUYS SUCCCCKKKKK.
+ PS3 *W00TS* too expensive yes... come christmas things will be better. I love it how critics are like are you willing to pay £400 quid for ps3 or are you willing to pay £200 for xbox and I was like ummmm you guys are frikking stupid. Xbox was that same price its only because they wanted to be competative that they brought their prices down. Xbox knows it aint that good so they have to strive for damn sucess. Plus, damn its how the business goes right?
- JASMINE SEND OFF THAT DAMN POSTAL ORDER ALREADY. BEFORE I GET BLACK THINGIED ALREADY.I AM NOT CHANGING ACCOUNTS BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T SENT IT OFF YET. I WILL KICK YOUR ASS CHILD.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Woah its funny how you can be happy one moment and just pissed off the next.
why are people always sensitive about what I say. I just say it to prove a point, but some people just cant except truth.People are always low blowing me when I do it back. Oh how dare you corinne. lets all just get pissy now. Its not fun when the tables are turned. Its okay to make you feel shitty about being who you are, but lets not do it to me. Oh lets carry on in the brilliance of taking the piss.
I dont understand it.
People are so annoying, I swear I can't be near others because I will snap at them. Well I'm just keeping my cool at the moment.
Might just stay indoors for a few days.
lol some girl called me emo at uni again yesterday morning. Guess why? My hair cut (you mean the haircut I didn't have)
My hair has always been this style it just hasn't been long enough to go over my eyes.Think back to the days when my hair could actually fit in a pony tail, there was a fringe,when I was college there was a fringe.Now it is everyone is like why are you getting your hair cut like that. omg the great abomination to the lord.
Plus, if anyone was to cut my hair. it would be my mother... Do you really think I would go to my mother, give me an emo hair cut. She would be like who, what and where?.. emo what is this devilish thing you speak of lol.
Love that woman she cracks me up at times.
To prove a point not that most people care anyway:
I need a holiday, a break. From everyone. From the moaning constantly, the complaints and yada yada yada. I dont wanna hear it right now.
I have my own shit to deal with. I'm sure if I tell ya about it. I just tell you for the sake of telling you.
tired of being a passive smoker, when I wake up in the morning my breathing is terrible. Alex picked up on it before. I used to wheeze in the morning. Its coming back again.
Oh god I'm winging again lol... oh get use to it , exams are nearly here and I am procrastinating like never before.
Might go away and not tell anyone I'm going, minus my mum and maybe a few people (still deciding on that)but yeah just as soon as my break comes... I making a clean break and having some fun.
alex is coming down next week, I dunno why, he just said he was. So is David this sounds be interesting, well for you guys not for me.
I'm getting shell like again. I think I am out of practice of being sociable,bitchy and sociable all wrapped one fantastic package.
wanna get more serious about church. I can see some people going (That's if you aint already)
To sum up this entry southeast and it peeps are drying me up.
Now to end this entry up on a nice happy note. *takes shirt off and starts swinging it around my head* wooooooooo
Okay I am done... and to all my special friends *slap* lol
I dont understand it.
People are so annoying, I swear I can't be near others because I will snap at them. Well I'm just keeping my cool at the moment.
Might just stay indoors for a few days.
lol some girl called me emo at uni again yesterday morning. Guess why? My hair cut (you mean the haircut I didn't have)
My hair has always been this style it just hasn't been long enough to go over my eyes.Think back to the days when my hair could actually fit in a pony tail, there was a fringe,when I was college there was a fringe.Now it is everyone is like why are you getting your hair cut like that. omg the great abomination to the lord.
Plus, if anyone was to cut my hair. it would be my mother... Do you really think I would go to my mother, give me an emo hair cut. She would be like who, what and where?.. emo what is this devilish thing you speak of lol.
Love that woman she cracks me up at times.
To prove a point not that most people care anyway:
I need a holiday, a break. From everyone. From the moaning constantly, the complaints and yada yada yada. I dont wanna hear it right now.
I have my own shit to deal with. I'm sure if I tell ya about it. I just tell you for the sake of telling you.
tired of being a passive smoker, when I wake up in the morning my breathing is terrible. Alex picked up on it before. I used to wheeze in the morning. Its coming back again.
Oh god I'm winging again lol... oh get use to it , exams are nearly here and I am procrastinating like never before.
Might go away and not tell anyone I'm going, minus my mum and maybe a few people (still deciding on that)but yeah just as soon as my break comes... I making a clean break and having some fun.
alex is coming down next week, I dunno why, he just said he was. So is David this sounds be interesting, well for you guys not for me.
I'm getting shell like again. I think I am out of practice of being sociable,bitchy and sociable all wrapped one fantastic package.
wanna get more serious about church. I can see some people going (That's if you aint already)
To sum up this entry southeast and it peeps are drying me up.
Now to end this entry up on a nice happy note. *takes shirt off and starts swinging it around my head* wooooooooo
Okay I am done... and to all my special friends *slap* lol
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
GO GO EMO RANGERS
howdy everyone. Um not feeling good today, its that time of month, plus it is damn freezing in my house for some reason. The other day, me and Kaz found a video mighty moshin' emo rangers.... lol there are actually full episodes *laughs head off* but its just friggin funny, they even have merch out... I so wanna get a shirt... it just makes me laugh. anyway here's the intro the mighty moshin emo rangers lol...
People keep callin me emo(eventhough I aint depressed, I dont go around complaining about my hard ships of life and live in some damn middle class family, with a caring family,I dont cut,Dont wear those frikkin skinny jeans, or walk around with eyeliner like a damn panda, or wear those damn red ribbons in my hair, I just listen to their music and write angsty poetry that is only because I am touch with those felings more.. actually that sounds like I am trying to justify it, so never mind.) I could be token black emo ranger... Token black emo ranger has the power to jack the enemy without them noticing.lol, enough or stupid rambling.
Anyway, I am a bit pissed off today, because of the state my laptop is in. I left it at issa house got home with it and there are scratches on this laptop I have never seen before, greasy finger prints all over the keys and the screen, and damn tea marks over the keys, where the speakers are and the touch pad is as sticky as hell. So once again corinne is a fool for trusting people with her stuff.Plus, someone was trying to crack into my myspace account and it locked me out. Oh well.
Anyway, I am cold, rolling in agony and tired. Man uni is stressin me slightly. I have so much going on I am just trying to get a firm grip on everything. I have 3 assignments to hand in and one portfolio and then I am done for the year. *still got emo rangers theme tune stuck in my head* *hits self*.
bought some new shoes, going paintballin on sunday *w00ts* with friends from uni. oh yeah blud. Still tryin gto look for a new job where my manager isn't a perve.
All stalkers are slowly dying away yey. Life is so peaceful without them. A day without mohammed rubbing himself against me is a good day, any day when he doesn't look at me is even better. Shame the second one doesn't happen, but yeah he has finally left me alone, now all I have to deal with is toks. He is a harder stain to shift.
Feel like going to see brigade or symbo.. dunno. Ah well when I have cash.
Taken my exstentions out and I am ugly again lol. Happy thing though about it, my hair has grown yey.
what other things...
+ apparently my new name is nancy
+ My imvu character is a damn hooker and likes to show off her crotch to anyone who wishes to view it.
- I get my student loan in 36 days... oi people I am dying here lol. I want my holiday and my new guitar you know lol.
and for some reason I cannot be bothered to finish this entry. So I am out bye people xxxx
People keep callin me emo(eventhough I aint depressed, I dont go around complaining about my hard ships of life and live in some damn middle class family, with a caring family,I dont cut,Dont wear those frikkin skinny jeans, or walk around with eyeliner like a damn panda, or wear those damn red ribbons in my hair, I just listen to their music and write angsty poetry that is only because I am touch with those felings more.. actually that sounds like I am trying to justify it, so never mind.) I could be token black emo ranger... Token black emo ranger has the power to jack the enemy without them noticing.lol, enough or stupid rambling.
Anyway, I am a bit pissed off today, because of the state my laptop is in. I left it at issa house got home with it and there are scratches on this laptop I have never seen before, greasy finger prints all over the keys and the screen, and damn tea marks over the keys, where the speakers are and the touch pad is as sticky as hell. So once again corinne is a fool for trusting people with her stuff.Plus, someone was trying to crack into my myspace account and it locked me out. Oh well.
Anyway, I am cold, rolling in agony and tired. Man uni is stressin me slightly. I have so much going on I am just trying to get a firm grip on everything. I have 3 assignments to hand in and one portfolio and then I am done for the year. *still got emo rangers theme tune stuck in my head* *hits self*.
bought some new shoes, going paintballin on sunday *w00ts* with friends from uni. oh yeah blud. Still tryin gto look for a new job where my manager isn't a perve.
All stalkers are slowly dying away yey. Life is so peaceful without them. A day without mohammed rubbing himself against me is a good day, any day when he doesn't look at me is even better. Shame the second one doesn't happen, but yeah he has finally left me alone, now all I have to deal with is toks. He is a harder stain to shift.
Feel like going to see brigade or symbo.. dunno. Ah well when I have cash.
Taken my exstentions out and I am ugly again lol. Happy thing though about it, my hair has grown yey.
what other things...
+ apparently my new name is nancy
+ My imvu character is a damn hooker and likes to show off her crotch to anyone who wishes to view it.
- I get my student loan in 36 days... oi people I am dying here lol. I want my holiday and my new guitar you know lol.
and for some reason I cannot be bothered to finish this entry. So I am out bye people xxxx
Friday, March 09, 2007
If your computer catches a virus while downloading porn, is that still counted as an std?/ I can't believe you are cheating on me... with your wife.
Hey everyone *waves like mad* How are we all? hope you are good. Just giving a little update, since I haven't given one in ages for you all who still check this thing. You must love my ass. Thanx for sticking 'round and yada yada yada. (Yeah that really showed my appreciation *shakes head*)
Anyway, things have been good. Uni, I love this place. Minus the work load and certain ecspecailly this person below...
This is fiona. I mean I didn't like her at first, then I grew to like her. Now I like her but I don't.
Reasons being:
She is so fashion concious it hurts.. I mean she is like going around asking everyone why they aren't in skinny jeans (ewwwww.). SKINNY JEANS SUCK ASS MAN.
She is always saying stuff like oh that person is so ugly and why are they wearing that and yada yada.
She is always talking about her inheritance and how much money she has.She depends on her 'rents too much , that if they left her for one day, she would commit suicide because she would be so clueless
She lies like a professional
She is a user
A fake. *dances around* Just look at me, look at me nooooowwwww... I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
There are so many things that I dislike about this girl. I can't believe I actually once upon a week ago considered her as a friend.
Anyway, couldn't go to a lew tutorial and I told sandra to take my baby (my mp3player) and record the tutorial for me. Since I would be in the library trying to finish off my Working in orgz assignment.
So sandra took my mp3 player and recorded the tutorial. Little did miss fiona know that, that happened. So when I was just about to start my law Assignment (oh I love law. Its so interesting) I thought I would listen to the tutorial to get some ideas. I heard fiona saying to my lecturer, that she didn't think I was going to pass Law, that I was not capable of completing this course. That she is better than me in all subjects. Telling my lecturer that I am bunking the tutorial because I couldn't be bothered to come.That she gave me notes from the last tutorial and I couldn't understand them.
As you can Imagine when I heard this, my mouth was like hanging... This is the reason why. In Law and other subjects, I have to help fiona, take time and sit with her in the library to explain crap to her. In working in Orgz we had a TCA I had the 2 highest score out of my business group, and the girl never gave me no notes, she just said that I had to be in lecture to understand them. When I also insisted on her giving me the notes she happily declined.
So I then started my law assignment and stayed up all night to do it. So When I got to uni I could find the rest of my cases and acts to cite. Sign it in and go home. So I got to the library after staying up all night. I come across fiona in the library. Guess what, girl has just started the assignment is now asking me for help. This is where my plan came in... but I wont discuss it here.
So I went about doing my work, she started carrying books to me, sucking up, being nice, just so I would help her. I outlined what she had to do and I helped her no further. I acted like nothing was wrong as everyone knows, I am damn great at.
I was talking to sandra and Aj about it. Lets just say certain things are already in motion.
To all the people who thought my life shattered into a million pieces (let me have time to tell you it didn't it was hardly an indent) when they left this is for you *laughs*:
And also to my close knit of friends this is a update that you probably already know hehe:
Things are good. I am moving again soon by the end of this month. I only have one more assignment to do for the rest of this year *w00ts*.
I am actually third in the whole uni, its a system they have to make their students work harder and I am third. Go cordie, go cordie.
I am going paintballing in two weeks with my uni mates. omg I can just imagine the war there is going to be. lol.
I am actually a christian now. Lol scary stuff I know. I do sometimes still havbe the tendancy to swear, but its a bond I need to break.
I don't drink anymore. If I do have a drink, I dont drink to get drunk. (Yeah I know everyone is saying, well what's the point then. Drinking gets tierd after a while. but for the new people, have your fun while it lasts lol)
I might have a job as a training Legal executive when I leave uni.
Apparently I am a guy magnet at the moment. Everyone must be on drugs because everyone fancies me. Honestly, I keep asking Kaz is everyone going crazy, has everyone lost their minds lol.
Buying a new guitar by the end of next month.YEEEEAAAHHH BABY MONEY SPENDAGE LOL.
Might be have a get together for my 20th. God I feel so old. I act so mature now, its actually starting to scare me. I mean I have my moments when I regress for a while.
I found out that Jay (yes jasmine) watches the bratz tv programme on a regular basis. aWWWWW. LOL.
Might be travelling around u.k come summer and maybe america, if I am lucky. I'll be going Scotland,Manchester (david is planning to stay up there),dorset,Yorkshire (yey vic mate another visit coming your way.Awww this time I can't jack any posters outside the cinema in the town :(lol),leed and a few others.
oh and do you remember in Buffy, the becoming part 2 where willow started chanting in her evil crazed eye way. The fact that I had watched that episode so many times the incantation got stuck in my head. Well guess what I found out it actually does mean something. Its latin. I thought it was.
Te implor doamne, nu ignora accasta rugaminte! niche morth niche althientay. Lasa orbita sa fie vasul care i va transporta sufletul la el![I CALL ON YOU, GODS, DO NOT IGNORE THI SUPPLICATION!LET THE ORB BE THE VESSEL TO CARRY HIS SOUL TO HIM!] este scris, aceasta putere este dreptul poporuil meu de conduce [IT IS WITTEN, THIS POWER IS MY RIGHT TO WIELD] Asa sa fie! Acum [LET IT BE SO! NOW!] lol I was speaking Latin all this time lol.
Things are turning out to okay, really okay.
anyway people, I am off. I may comment again... or just add to this one.
Niggahs I love ya like a fat guy loves cake xxx
Anyway, things have been good. Uni, I love this place. Minus the work load and certain ecspecailly this person below...
This is fiona. I mean I didn't like her at first, then I grew to like her. Now I like her but I don't.
Reasons being:
She is so fashion concious it hurts.. I mean she is like going around asking everyone why they aren't in skinny jeans (ewwwww.). SKINNY JEANS SUCK ASS MAN.
She is always saying stuff like oh that person is so ugly and why are they wearing that and yada yada.
She is always talking about her inheritance and how much money she has.She depends on her 'rents too much , that if they left her for one day, she would commit suicide because she would be so clueless
She lies like a professional
She is a user
A fake. *dances around* Just look at me, look at me nooooowwwww... I'm a fake, I'm a fake.
There are so many things that I dislike about this girl. I can't believe I actually once upon a week ago considered her as a friend.
Anyway, couldn't go to a lew tutorial and I told sandra to take my baby (my mp3player) and record the tutorial for me. Since I would be in the library trying to finish off my Working in orgz assignment.
So sandra took my mp3 player and recorded the tutorial. Little did miss fiona know that, that happened. So when I was just about to start my law Assignment (oh I love law. Its so interesting) I thought I would listen to the tutorial to get some ideas. I heard fiona saying to my lecturer, that she didn't think I was going to pass Law, that I was not capable of completing this course. That she is better than me in all subjects. Telling my lecturer that I am bunking the tutorial because I couldn't be bothered to come.That she gave me notes from the last tutorial and I couldn't understand them.
As you can Imagine when I heard this, my mouth was like hanging... This is the reason why. In Law and other subjects, I have to help fiona, take time and sit with her in the library to explain crap to her. In working in Orgz we had a TCA I had the 2 highest score out of my business group, and the girl never gave me no notes, she just said that I had to be in lecture to understand them. When I also insisted on her giving me the notes she happily declined.
So I then started my law assignment and stayed up all night to do it. So When I got to uni I could find the rest of my cases and acts to cite. Sign it in and go home. So I got to the library after staying up all night. I come across fiona in the library. Guess what, girl has just started the assignment is now asking me for help. This is where my plan came in... but I wont discuss it here.
So I went about doing my work, she started carrying books to me, sucking up, being nice, just so I would help her. I outlined what she had to do and I helped her no further. I acted like nothing was wrong as everyone knows, I am damn great at.
I was talking to sandra and Aj about it. Lets just say certain things are already in motion.
To all the people who thought my life shattered into a million pieces (let me have time to tell you it didn't it was hardly an indent) when they left this is for you *laughs*:
And also to my close knit of friends this is a update that you probably already know hehe:
Things are good. I am moving again soon by the end of this month. I only have one more assignment to do for the rest of this year *w00ts*.
I am actually third in the whole uni, its a system they have to make their students work harder and I am third. Go cordie, go cordie.
I am going paintballing in two weeks with my uni mates. omg I can just imagine the war there is going to be. lol.
I am actually a christian now. Lol scary stuff I know. I do sometimes still havbe the tendancy to swear, but its a bond I need to break.
I don't drink anymore. If I do have a drink, I dont drink to get drunk. (Yeah I know everyone is saying, well what's the point then. Drinking gets tierd after a while. but for the new people, have your fun while it lasts lol)
I might have a job as a training Legal executive when I leave uni.
Apparently I am a guy magnet at the moment. Everyone must be on drugs because everyone fancies me. Honestly, I keep asking Kaz is everyone going crazy, has everyone lost their minds lol.
Buying a new guitar by the end of next month.YEEEEAAAHHH BABY MONEY SPENDAGE LOL.
Might be have a get together for my 20th. God I feel so old. I act so mature now, its actually starting to scare me. I mean I have my moments when I regress for a while.
I found out that Jay (yes jasmine) watches the bratz tv programme on a regular basis. aWWWWW. LOL.
Might be travelling around u.k come summer and maybe america, if I am lucky. I'll be going Scotland,Manchester (david is planning to stay up there),dorset,Yorkshire (yey vic mate another visit coming your way.Awww this time I can't jack any posters outside the cinema in the town :(lol),leed and a few others.
oh and do you remember in Buffy, the becoming part 2 where willow started chanting in her evil crazed eye way. The fact that I had watched that episode so many times the incantation got stuck in my head. Well guess what I found out it actually does mean something. Its latin. I thought it was.
Te implor doamne, nu ignora accasta rugaminte! niche morth niche althientay. Lasa orbita sa fie vasul care i va transporta sufletul la el![I CALL ON YOU, GODS, DO NOT IGNORE THI SUPPLICATION!LET THE ORB BE THE VESSEL TO CARRY HIS SOUL TO HIM!] este scris, aceasta putere este dreptul poporuil meu de conduce [IT IS WITTEN, THIS POWER IS MY RIGHT TO WIELD] Asa sa fie! Acum [LET IT BE SO! NOW!] lol I was speaking Latin all this time lol.
Things are turning out to okay, really okay.
anyway people, I am off. I may comment again... or just add to this one.
Niggahs I love ya like a fat guy loves cake xxx
Thursday, February 22, 2007
yeah I so what if I put a bomb in the lecture hall
Hey guys umm this is a video based entry. Um basically I have been on you tube all night doing my daily downloading... lol
anyway I actually went of episodes of mutant x and I remember having the argument with random people that victor webster (coup from charmed) looked better as brennan from Mutant x. I mean he was hotttt in mutant x I think it was the whole electricity thing. *sighs*
even though brennan and emma have never been a couple in mutant x... these two videos looks like they should have been because shalimar was just a skank. lol... but anyway coup filled videos below.
The next one is this funny, but stupid comedy thing basically she is taking the piss out of emo's by becoming one herself lol. It cure my minutes of boredom lol you just have to watch it the first one about the dust I was like wth? I must admit she is pretty most guys are gonna like her. The first one is called "the words are dying" and the second one is called "hiders and seekers" lol
enjoy... this video is about martha I am telling you.
anyway I actually went of episodes of mutant x and I remember having the argument with random people that victor webster (coup from charmed) looked better as brennan from Mutant x. I mean he was hotttt in mutant x I think it was the whole electricity thing. *sighs*
even though brennan and emma have never been a couple in mutant x... these two videos looks like they should have been because shalimar was just a skank. lol... but anyway coup filled videos below.
The next one is this funny, but stupid comedy thing basically she is taking the piss out of emo's by becoming one herself lol. It cure my minutes of boredom lol you just have to watch it the first one about the dust I was like wth? I must admit she is pretty most guys are gonna like her. The first one is called "the words are dying" and the second one is called "hiders and seekers" lol
enjoy... this video is about martha I am telling you.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Let it be I say, let it be
Hey everyone... Guess what... I finished my 7 days fast and am now on fruit and stuff. I have lost weight because apparently with fasting you lose like a pound a day lol. So I have a flat stomach and little appetite and I have to have 4 ounces (8 table spoons) of food every 4 hours.. I can't rush and eat it will damage me .
So anyway.. I am feeling good today.. I mean I had an experiance today adn for the first time I understood why mum was so happy in being a christian. I dont know what it was today but while everyone was in tounges, I felt my tongue become loose, my stomach started to feel there was something in it and I could feel this presence in my throat. I also starting crying uncontrollably.Funniest thing through out it all I felt so much joy. I am actually starting to believe. I am goign to become a more dedicated christian.. Scary eh? but for me , peaceful.
I do though have to train my thoughts, because around a certain person. I get all day dreamy and I am not kidding its getting the worst of me.
I've just finished having some foos and I got uni in the morning.
This week alone, has been a strange but insightful week.
I wish I could makeyou guys understand more clearly, but maybe if you guys try it you may understand more clearer... I dunno. Anyway people I am off. Love ya all x x x
oh also it was my mum's bday on saturday. I got her a footspa and a card she loves it. A person from church got her loads of ballons saying happy bday and her name on it.. look at her doesn't she just look so happy ...awwwwww.
So anyway.. I am feeling good today.. I mean I had an experiance today adn for the first time I understood why mum was so happy in being a christian. I dont know what it was today but while everyone was in tounges, I felt my tongue become loose, my stomach started to feel there was something in it and I could feel this presence in my throat. I also starting crying uncontrollably.Funniest thing through out it all I felt so much joy. I am actually starting to believe. I am goign to become a more dedicated christian.. Scary eh? but for me , peaceful.
I do though have to train my thoughts, because around a certain person. I get all day dreamy and I am not kidding its getting the worst of me.
I've just finished having some foos and I got uni in the morning.
This week alone, has been a strange but insightful week.
I wish I could makeyou guys understand more clearly, but maybe if you guys try it you may understand more clearer... I dunno. Anyway people I am off. Love ya all x x x
oh also it was my mum's bday on saturday. I got her a footspa and a card she loves it. A person from church got her loads of ballons saying happy bday and her name on it.. look at her doesn't she just look so happy ...awwwwww.
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Today is my day to shine *smiles*
Hey everyone ... just thought I write another message. I dunno why...
Um updates :
I am on my 3rd day of fasting so far so good... I got 4 more days, I have lost a bit of weight already. My jeans are kinda sliding off me. Water has become my favourite friend. lol.
It's valentines day today... yey for all you couples have a great night tonight. I was supposed to be going on a cruise party today with my uni friends, but because of the fasting, I am kinda weak. Plus, my mum thought it would be very unfair to me.. if I was there while everyone was eating so sorry guys, tell me about it tonight when you get back.
I also got invited to the London MCM expo... by one of my deviant art friends... the very few I have. lol.. there will be a dev meet there so... all the people and deviant art members, make a show even for the party. Cus I know I will be... Plus, *cries* I must run upto and hug Zaku or even deathsy. Okay I have just became 12 again lol.
um what else what else... umm... can't think of anything and I had so much to say at the beginning.
Anyway... Happy V day people and happy birthday sister rose x x x
Um updates :
I am on my 3rd day of fasting so far so good... I got 4 more days, I have lost a bit of weight already. My jeans are kinda sliding off me. Water has become my favourite friend. lol.
It's valentines day today... yey for all you couples have a great night tonight. I was supposed to be going on a cruise party today with my uni friends, but because of the fasting, I am kinda weak. Plus, my mum thought it would be very unfair to me.. if I was there while everyone was eating so sorry guys, tell me about it tonight when you get back.
I also got invited to the London MCM expo... by one of my deviant art friends... the very few I have. lol.. there will be a dev meet there so... all the people and deviant art members, make a show even for the party. Cus I know I will be... Plus, *cries* I must run upto and hug Zaku or even deathsy. Okay I have just became 12 again lol.
um what else what else... umm... can't think of anything and I had so much to say at the beginning.
Anyway... Happy V day people and happy birthday sister rose x x x
Thursday, February 08, 2007
damn nigger.... its well freezing up in here...
Ok my boiler broke yesterday, so I had to sleep in the freezing cold. These people said they were going to come and fix this boiler... at 8 in the morning today... So I wait patiently. It is now 15:01 and these niggas still aint at my doorstep lol.
So I am sitting here in the freezing cold... honestly... freezing my ass off. My fan heaters arent working... and there is just snow outside my windows lots of it.
I am tierd and cold, and have to finish tons of work... But I aint down... I am happy.
Um Just finished having a convo with about him showing me his dick and he was angry because I wouldn't show him anything... what do you think this is free friggin porn. I aint one of your net sluts. He is a nice guy but sometimes he pisses me off... get use to the fact that aint showing you jack. Hell no I aint lowering myself to please you ass oh please.
Um I have put a new pic and video today... Might change my blog by next week. I wont have anything else to do. Also next week I will be fasting for 7 days... Yesh seven days. I may be a little skeletal after it lol. My new pic is of me and my older brother Thomas... who I got to see yesterday, who actually stood in my bedroom and hung out with me. He hasn't done that in ages... that could be because he is in prison. But he was allowed a home visit for four days, but he stayed with my dad *shakes head*after all that man put your through. Anyway it is his choice. The video is of my mate Ajnoop (Aj) we were in the disney store after uni and he decided to try and play with a hula hoop. He was putting so much concentration into it... it was just funny to watch shame I only got only a few seconds of him trying to.
I'm still working on my gallery but until then... I have a crappy bravenet one in its place.
I wanted a picture of the snow this morning ... but I couldn't be bothered to go to argos for decent batteries lol.
I have a quants exam next week. I might have the change to work as a legal exec.. My lecturer sees potential in me apparently.
Going on a cruise party for valentines day hopefully with uni mates. But I wont be eating because of fasting *cries* and its my mums bday.. I am not too sure what i am getting her yet plus, ever valentines day not matter how wierd it must look to others I always buy her a card and flowers lol. Then piss off. lol
um in January I went to go and see my friends band Symbo (unusual name for a band everyone says, but don't take that away from their sound) I got in free (yeah dude) and Jasmine and Kaz had to pay. Andy, my mate is having another gig soon.. I wanna go but I have an exam the next day *cries* I really wanna go. *sobs* check em out www.myspace.com/symbomusic another band was playing before them called the cutaway or soemthing like that.... but I swear the front man sounded like dave from inme... it was some scary shizzle.
Listening to the blackout again (ooooh the emoness)
On a strange High today, which means I should meet up with my friends.
Probably read my bible on the train... Yeah don't look at me like that.
Eating some stir fry my mum made... Thank you god, for my chef of a mother. lol
Anyway guys... have fun whatever you are doing this week and next ... cus I know I will...
Loveya
x x x x x
So I am sitting here in the freezing cold... honestly... freezing my ass off. My fan heaters arent working... and there is just snow outside my windows lots of it.
I am tierd and cold, and have to finish tons of work... But I aint down... I am happy.
Um Just finished having a convo with about him showing me his dick and he was angry because I wouldn't show him anything... what do you think this is free friggin porn. I aint one of your net sluts. He is a nice guy but sometimes he pisses me off... get use to the fact that aint showing you jack. Hell no I aint lowering myself to please you ass oh please.
Um I have put a new pic and video today... Might change my blog by next week. I wont have anything else to do. Also next week I will be fasting for 7 days... Yesh seven days. I may be a little skeletal after it lol. My new pic is of me and my older brother Thomas... who I got to see yesterday, who actually stood in my bedroom and hung out with me. He hasn't done that in ages... that could be because he is in prison. But he was allowed a home visit for four days, but he stayed with my dad *shakes head*after all that man put your through. Anyway it is his choice. The video is of my mate Ajnoop (Aj) we were in the disney store after uni and he decided to try and play with a hula hoop. He was putting so much concentration into it... it was just funny to watch shame I only got only a few seconds of him trying to.
I'm still working on my gallery but until then... I have a crappy bravenet one in its place.
I wanted a picture of the snow this morning ... but I couldn't be bothered to go to argos for decent batteries lol.
I have a quants exam next week. I might have the change to work as a legal exec.. My lecturer sees potential in me apparently.
Going on a cruise party for valentines day hopefully with uni mates. But I wont be eating because of fasting *cries* and its my mums bday.. I am not too sure what i am getting her yet plus, ever valentines day not matter how wierd it must look to others I always buy her a card and flowers lol. Then piss off. lol
um in January I went to go and see my friends band Symbo (unusual name for a band everyone says, but don't take that away from their sound) I got in free (yeah dude) and Jasmine and Kaz had to pay. Andy, my mate is having another gig soon.. I wanna go but I have an exam the next day *cries* I really wanna go. *sobs* check em out www.myspace.com/symbomusic another band was playing before them called the cutaway or soemthing like that.... but I swear the front man sounded like dave from inme... it was some scary shizzle.
Listening to the blackout again (ooooh the emoness)
On a strange High today, which means I should meet up with my friends.
Probably read my bible on the train... Yeah don't look at me like that.
Eating some stir fry my mum made... Thank you god, for my chef of a mother. lol
Anyway guys... have fun whatever you are doing this week and next ... cus I know I will...
Loveya
x x x x x
Friday, January 26, 2007
I'm getting ready for my pressed purple suit.
I don't know how to start this without sounding weird. But I am scared. A sudden fear has come over me tonight. Something that is telling me that what was given to me is a message is close.
I have a knowledge that I won't be here for much longer. That I may cease to exist. Today I feel weak.. worn down, not full of life anymore. Its like my body has started to give up on me. I have been getting terrible headaches for ages
and light now is hurting my eyes. Yes this all sounds very weird... very strange, very imaginary. But its true.
I guess I am writing this entry because I feel I wanted something to be said, just encase if anything does happen to me. god, the more I write this, the more strange it sounds.
*head in hands* just saying thank you to anyone who has graced my life, in one way or another.. I wanna thank you. whether you were a good impact or a bad one, I still love ya... Yes Martha this does include you. Because along the way, each of you taught me, made me stronger with everything I had to face.
Your courage or you negativity, pushed me to boundaries that made me step up my game as a person.
I've enjoyed everything, this world. And no this is not a suicide note lol.
I a way I always knew that someone was always controlling my destiny. That it was never in my own hands, that everything I faced. All the heartbreak, the tears, the rejection, the abuse was for a reason. A greater reason that I can ever imagine on even being graced with.
I have a really big decision I have to make, and for some reason I am so scared to make it, with all the odds stacked against me, I feel like giving up.
There is a big hourglass sitting next to my head, ticking down my time, I know I am ill and there is nothing I can do about it, than to become a Christian. My ignorance, my inability to follow ground rules which my mother has set me, refuse such a commitment.
I sit here with one single question... just bouncing around in my head "why me??"
"what do I have to play a significant part in all of this"
I'm scared... to you this may seem like total crap, to me .... to everyone who is involved. Life just took another scary turn.
ttyl x x
I have a knowledge that I won't be here for much longer. That I may cease to exist. Today I feel weak.. worn down, not full of life anymore. Its like my body has started to give up on me. I have been getting terrible headaches for ages
and light now is hurting my eyes. Yes this all sounds very weird... very strange, very imaginary. But its true.
I guess I am writing this entry because I feel I wanted something to be said, just encase if anything does happen to me. god, the more I write this, the more strange it sounds.
*head in hands* just saying thank you to anyone who has graced my life, in one way or another.. I wanna thank you. whether you were a good impact or a bad one, I still love ya... Yes Martha this does include you. Because along the way, each of you taught me, made me stronger with everything I had to face.
Your courage or you negativity, pushed me to boundaries that made me step up my game as a person.
I've enjoyed everything, this world. And no this is not a suicide note lol.
I a way I always knew that someone was always controlling my destiny. That it was never in my own hands, that everything I faced. All the heartbreak, the tears, the rejection, the abuse was for a reason. A greater reason that I can ever imagine on even being graced with.
I have a really big decision I have to make, and for some reason I am so scared to make it, with all the odds stacked against me, I feel like giving up.
There is a big hourglass sitting next to my head, ticking down my time, I know I am ill and there is nothing I can do about it, than to become a Christian. My ignorance, my inability to follow ground rules which my mother has set me, refuse such a commitment.
I sit here with one single question... just bouncing around in my head "why me??"
"what do I have to play a significant part in all of this"
I'm scared... to you this may seem like total crap, to me .... to everyone who is involved. Life just took another scary turn.
ttyl x x
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
woah season 4 is the shizzle.
Okay it is 06:42 in the morning and I just finished season 4 of alias.
Can i just say something, all this time I have been missing out.
It was jaw dropping... I swear my love for alias has been renewed like magic.
The Finale fight between Sydney and Nadia was hyped up a bit too much, but still, sydeny so would have died if sloane
hadn't saved her ass. Also Michael vartan (vaughn) hotttttt. In the last two episodes ecspecially must get that scene in the bar.
I would want treat him rough too if that's what happens *smiles*
I love this boxset must watch it again. *goes off to start at episode one* actually scrap that this must be borrowed to Sabriye.
Season 2 and season 4 are definately my fav seasons. They shouldn't have ended this show.. can't wait until season 5 comes out yey.
Yes, this may seem completely sad to some, but... *shrugs*
I bought season 2 as well so I'm off.
God if one more person calls me to tell me to call my dad... I will scream. Damn the man is evil, not sweet, funny and innocent.
Hell is that man, when they say the devil is walking this earth he is him.
Yes I know I have been pissed off within the last few days and surprisingly watching back to back episodes of Alias has calmed me down
ecspecially watching michael vartan for that long *drools* make me a very happy girl *laughs* twtylxxxx
Oh my favourite Sydney and vaughn scene, I also like what happens after but I couldn't find it. lol This scene is so sexy... vaughn and sydney in a club talking on comms about being "rough" but who is on the other side of the line. This scene is just class.
Can i just say something, all this time I have been missing out.
It was jaw dropping... I swear my love for alias has been renewed like magic.
The Finale fight between Sydney and Nadia was hyped up a bit too much, but still, sydeny so would have died if sloane
hadn't saved her ass. Also Michael vartan (vaughn) hotttttt. In the last two episodes ecspecially must get that scene in the bar.
I would want treat him rough too if that's what happens *smiles*
I love this boxset must watch it again. *goes off to start at episode one* actually scrap that this must be borrowed to Sabriye.
Season 2 and season 4 are definately my fav seasons. They shouldn't have ended this show.. can't wait until season 5 comes out yey.
Yes, this may seem completely sad to some, but... *shrugs*
I bought season 2 as well so I'm off.
God if one more person calls me to tell me to call my dad... I will scream. Damn the man is evil, not sweet, funny and innocent.
Hell is that man, when they say the devil is walking this earth he is him.
Yes I know I have been pissed off within the last few days and surprisingly watching back to back episodes of Alias has calmed me down
ecspecially watching michael vartan for that long *drools* make me a very happy girl *laughs* twtylxxxx
Oh my favourite Sydney and vaughn scene, I also like what happens after but I couldn't find it. lol This scene is so sexy... vaughn and sydney in a club talking on comms about being "rough" but who is on the other side of the line. This scene is just class.
Monday, January 15, 2007
The old Alliances are dead. Cordie, you are on your own. Roger that.
Simplest post I am ever gonna have to make.
- The is a big possibility I might die in a few years... All my finest enimies are welcome to dances on my grave when that happens. Trust me I wont feel a thing I will be burning.
- I swear if Anthony Nteh comes anywhere near me I will behead him. I read his conversation to Alex... Lets just say I am just a toy to everyone.
- IF TOKS DOESN'T STOP STALKING ME I WILL CUT OFF HIS BALLS AND SHOVE EM UP HIS ASS. AND IF HE AINT DEAD BY THEN I WILL CHOP OF HIS DICK AND STICK IT DOWN HIS THROAT HOPEFULLY ITS BIG ENOUGH TO MAKE HIM CHOKE. DUMBASS.
- ALEX IF YOU ARE READING THIS.... stop and I do mean STOP PHONING ME. MY GOD, GET A NEW TOY TO PLAY WITH. THAT'S WHAT MOST GUYS DO. I LET YOU GO FREE, YOU'RE A BIRD YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO FLY AWAY, NOT CONTINUE TO PECK AT MY SLEEVE.
PLEASE SOMEONE DROP A MACHINE GUN IN MY HAND AND DO IT NOW.
Only one plus though. I bought Alias season 4 on dvd yey... oh and David STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM MY DAMN DOOR.
I AM NOT APOLOGISING TO ANYONE FOR THESE MESSAGES SO DON'T START ASKING FOR APOLOGIES BECAUSE THEY WILL NOT BE RECIEVED. BUT IF YOU WANT ONE SO BAD I WILL SEE IF THE CORINNE HUNT I DON'T CARE STORE HAS ANY IN STOCK FOR YOU.
Excuse me before I decide to strangle anyone I will be watching my Alias dvd. CATCHING UP WHAT MY DAMN STUPID LITTLE LIFE THAT AINT EVEN WORTH LIVING (eventhough I want to continue living it) MADE ME MISS.
- The is a big possibility I might die in a few years... All my finest enimies are welcome to dances on my grave when that happens. Trust me I wont feel a thing I will be burning.
- I swear if Anthony Nteh comes anywhere near me I will behead him. I read his conversation to Alex... Lets just say I am just a toy to everyone.
- IF TOKS DOESN'T STOP STALKING ME I WILL CUT OFF HIS BALLS AND SHOVE EM UP HIS ASS. AND IF HE AINT DEAD BY THEN I WILL CHOP OF HIS DICK AND STICK IT DOWN HIS THROAT HOPEFULLY ITS BIG ENOUGH TO MAKE HIM CHOKE. DUMBASS.
- ALEX IF YOU ARE READING THIS.... stop and I do mean STOP PHONING ME. MY GOD, GET A NEW TOY TO PLAY WITH. THAT'S WHAT MOST GUYS DO. I LET YOU GO FREE, YOU'RE A BIRD YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO FLY AWAY, NOT CONTINUE TO PECK AT MY SLEEVE.
PLEASE SOMEONE DROP A MACHINE GUN IN MY HAND AND DO IT NOW.
Only one plus though. I bought Alias season 4 on dvd yey... oh and David STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM MY DAMN DOOR.
I AM NOT APOLOGISING TO ANYONE FOR THESE MESSAGES SO DON'T START ASKING FOR APOLOGIES BECAUSE THEY WILL NOT BE RECIEVED. BUT IF YOU WANT ONE SO BAD I WILL SEE IF THE CORINNE HUNT I DON'T CARE STORE HAS ANY IN STOCK FOR YOU.
Excuse me before I decide to strangle anyone I will be watching my Alias dvd. CATCHING UP WHAT MY DAMN STUPID LITTLE LIFE THAT AINT EVEN WORTH LIVING (eventhough I want to continue living it) MADE ME MISS.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Drinking myself to shreds, breaking hearts that I just can't mend.Stop all these voice inside my head. Coke,Coffee,Alcohol, love and loss.all I got.
9 Things you have done today?
- Lost my mind
- Went to Alex's thinking spot
- Drank alcohol alone in my room and got successfully pissed
- Repeated my whole life in my head
- Spoke to Alex
- Cried
- Put up my DOA poster that Komal got me for christmas
- Wrote a poem and ripped it up.
- Listened to music so loud that neighbours from 3 doors away told me to low down my music.
8 Issues you have in your life right now
- The fact this quiz is asking me to list my issues is pissing me off.
- I don't have a problem, but since I have come back from my holiday I have been drinking bottles of rum straight and alone in my room.
- People who tell jokes which are not fucking funny
- People who say they fucking love me over and over on the phone.
- This damn world is just fucking corrupted, you could have the devil dancing around on earth and no one would give a rats ass
- Bus fare and travelcards going up.I mean come on Ken, if you put up the prices anymore, I might as well walk to uni. Fucking hell
- My weight actually,I haven't really noticed how much weight I am putting on. Maybe I should try charlottes favorite diet... is called how to lose weight with bulima *laughs* nah I wouldn't try that. I kinda like my tits (like many men do) and my ass *pats it* and I am big but My height doesn't let the worst of it show.
- Parents and men who trying to get my mother and me not allowed to just be free. I always have something holding me down. Someone blackmailing me.
7 Bad things you have done?
- Took ecstacy when I was fourteen.bad crowd.
- Hurting people emotionally. I mean I study their weak points and when I need to I exploit them. Yeah I'm not so fucking innocent after all.
- Travelled across the world without my mothers knowledge.
- Set a part of burgess park alight and it was in a newletter and on the news
- Jumped a police officer
- 'Cheated' twice on a boyfriend
- Went of my way to total destroy someone
6 Happy Memories ( to tell you the truth there aren't that many)
- The Park, I was part of a group, everyone knew my name, got my humour and loved me for who I was.
- Drunken Times with Kaz,Jasmine, charlotte (eventhough truly she is a little fucking whore),Mark,scott(weed head),Anthony ( backstabbing liar),Dwaine (paedophile),Scanner (crackhead number 1),danny (crackhead number 2),Leanne (*COUGH* Incest *cough*,alisson,asher(ass),chantelle (Slut) and martha(just got fucking issues). Once again because everyone knew me, I was comfortablein my surroundings.I could drink, scream and they would understand it was just part of my strangeness and accepted it.
- When I fell in love the first time. It truly was strange and beautiful lol.
- When I passed My first guitar exam. Chris was getting updated by my mum how I was doing, then I went to party with David.
- When David and I went to our first live wrestling show, That is a fucking buzz. I swear to god its like a damn mosh pit but with seats lol.
- Random Birthday, holidays, brother and sisterly love moments. When I was actually showed love from my parents.
5 Things that turn you on (wtf????)
- Grind with me by Pretty Ricky
- Anything to do with my neck and behind my knee *laughs* I'm ticklish, but if you do it right I will be putty in your hands.
- Alcohol and my period lol I know that sounds sick but its true when I am drunk or on my period I get horny.
- Easiest one ... porn.
- Danger
4 Things you love (nothing this world sucks)
- My friends. The energy they give me is unbelivable, I'm like a vampire sometimes. Sucking them dry and that makes it able for me to entertain them for many hours on end
- Alex, I know its wrong for me too. But I do. I think I always will, he is the one guy who has stuck with me through my shit and when he was so faithful to me I let him go. He connected with me on a different level to any guy I have dated. To Him I am perfect, eventhough I am a train wreck.
- My mind and the way it works. It gives me the knowledge to argue anything when the time comes to it.. Yes I may be nervous and stammery at first but in the end it will be your ass walking away in shame. Debating worldly issues, Religion, theroy's, general ideas and so forth.
- Uni. Its the greatest place ever. Everyone is just so nice and kind and lectures and our sleeping in turn system works pefectly lol. Plus.... because I can't write five, I love my mum.
3 Things you want to do in the future
- A porn star lol
- My dream job... Ya'll know what that is, which kinda doesn't help the first one lol
- To least have a band on the side and get a rock mag *smiles* and in astoria. Then world domination hahahaha.
2 Things you regret
- Jack shit
- Jack shit... Live is there to be lived not to be regretted. Yeah we make many mistakes along the way. but god damn it only makes us stronger. I know I have improved from my mistakes. Yeah I can be a morbid fuck at times, but I could be botherd with what people think or say and its my life not yours. Mind your own business lol.
1 Thing you miss
- Too many things to be just one.
- Lost my mind
- Went to Alex's thinking spot
- Drank alcohol alone in my room and got successfully pissed
- Repeated my whole life in my head
- Spoke to Alex
- Cried
- Put up my DOA poster that Komal got me for christmas
- Wrote a poem and ripped it up.
- Listened to music so loud that neighbours from 3 doors away told me to low down my music.
8 Issues you have in your life right now
- The fact this quiz is asking me to list my issues is pissing me off.
- I don't have a problem, but since I have come back from my holiday I have been drinking bottles of rum straight and alone in my room.
- People who tell jokes which are not fucking funny
- People who say they fucking love me over and over on the phone.
- This damn world is just fucking corrupted, you could have the devil dancing around on earth and no one would give a rats ass
- Bus fare and travelcards going up.I mean come on Ken, if you put up the prices anymore, I might as well walk to uni. Fucking hell
- My weight actually,I haven't really noticed how much weight I am putting on. Maybe I should try charlottes favorite diet... is called how to lose weight with bulima *laughs* nah I wouldn't try that. I kinda like my tits (like many men do) and my ass *pats it* and I am big but My height doesn't let the worst of it show.
- Parents and men who trying to get my mother and me not allowed to just be free. I always have something holding me down. Someone blackmailing me.
7 Bad things you have done?
- Took ecstacy when I was fourteen.bad crowd.
- Hurting people emotionally. I mean I study their weak points and when I need to I exploit them. Yeah I'm not so fucking innocent after all.
- Travelled across the world without my mothers knowledge.
- Set a part of burgess park alight and it was in a newletter and on the news
- Jumped a police officer
- 'Cheated' twice on a boyfriend
- Went of my way to total destroy someone
6 Happy Memories ( to tell you the truth there aren't that many)
- The Park, I was part of a group, everyone knew my name, got my humour and loved me for who I was.
- Drunken Times with Kaz,Jasmine, charlotte (eventhough truly she is a little fucking whore),Mark,scott(weed head),Anthony ( backstabbing liar),Dwaine (paedophile),Scanner (crackhead number 1),danny (crackhead number 2),Leanne (*COUGH* Incest *cough*,alisson,asher(ass),chantelle (Slut) and martha(just got fucking issues). Once again because everyone knew me, I was comfortablein my surroundings.I could drink, scream and they would understand it was just part of my strangeness and accepted it.
- When I fell in love the first time. It truly was strange and beautiful lol.
- When I passed My first guitar exam. Chris was getting updated by my mum how I was doing, then I went to party with David.
- When David and I went to our first live wrestling show, That is a fucking buzz. I swear to god its like a damn mosh pit but with seats lol.
- Random Birthday, holidays, brother and sisterly love moments. When I was actually showed love from my parents.
5 Things that turn you on (wtf????)
- Grind with me by Pretty Ricky
- Anything to do with my neck and behind my knee *laughs* I'm ticklish, but if you do it right I will be putty in your hands.
- Alcohol and my period lol I know that sounds sick but its true when I am drunk or on my period I get horny.
- Easiest one ... porn.
- Danger
4 Things you love (nothing this world sucks)
- My friends. The energy they give me is unbelivable, I'm like a vampire sometimes. Sucking them dry and that makes it able for me to entertain them for many hours on end
- Alex, I know its wrong for me too. But I do. I think I always will, he is the one guy who has stuck with me through my shit and when he was so faithful to me I let him go. He connected with me on a different level to any guy I have dated. To Him I am perfect, eventhough I am a train wreck.
- My mind and the way it works. It gives me the knowledge to argue anything when the time comes to it.. Yes I may be nervous and stammery at first but in the end it will be your ass walking away in shame. Debating worldly issues, Religion, theroy's, general ideas and so forth.
- Uni. Its the greatest place ever. Everyone is just so nice and kind and lectures and our sleeping in turn system works pefectly lol. Plus.... because I can't write five, I love my mum.
3 Things you want to do in the future
- A porn star lol
- My dream job... Ya'll know what that is, which kinda doesn't help the first one lol
- To least have a band on the side and get a rock mag *smiles* and in astoria. Then world domination hahahaha.
2 Things you regret
- Jack shit
- Jack shit... Live is there to be lived not to be regretted. Yeah we make many mistakes along the way. but god damn it only makes us stronger. I know I have improved from my mistakes. Yeah I can be a morbid fuck at times, but I could be botherd with what people think or say and its my life not yours. Mind your own business lol.
1 Thing you miss
- Too many things to be just one.
Monday, December 25, 2006
Greetings and Prezzerz
Creamy (Corrie) asked me to post this she can't get access where she is. Alex.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
barney the gansta
sorry I just had to post this because I thought it was so fucking funny. I've been bending up for hours ecspecially when it first starts
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Thursday, November 30, 2006
Black Diamond.
I' ve always wished to have a normal life
but never have
I wished to have parents who could take care of me
be there for me
understand me
But I never did.
I wish I could live alone
but I am bound to my mother
I never can.
This is kinda strange to write but I am worried. Stuff is happening that is out of my control.
I told my brother something I shouldn't and before I know it my dad will know and that will cause more problems for my mum. Apparently, by the words of god I will suffer if I do not come to church soon according to the Amos chapter 5.
It talks about mourning, like death. I dunno, I am just worried. I know I don't really believe all of this is happening, and ecspecially to me but it is. So I can't help worrying. Its just something in me, that i know something bigger is to come. I feel a war brewing on the Kaz and dwaine front and another war between my mum and my dad and guess what, now that my brotehr knows a piece of sensitive information I am not surprised that he will deliver it into the hands of my dad.
Oh god I am confused ... serious, no joke now. I am actually considering church.but, why me? Can't I just get a rest without drama. But no I'm sorry this is corinne natalie hunt of course I don't deserve a break. I wanna cry, I want to run away. I just want to hide is that so much to ask. Everything seems to be going wrong.
Minus uni. Uni is the one thing I feel happy about, I mean my friends there are kick ass cool. Specially Fiona, Ozzie,Ryan, Aj, Toks, Adealson, Tabo, sandra, Treasure, Simmran and boal. But I am so afriad about failure this year, more than any year of college or even more than my gcse's... my gcse's I was kaking myself. But the experience has been so fun.
See I have even started talking like these are my last days, maybe they are.. I dunno. I am just a confused bundle of mess, I will never understand why my dad just cannot let this go. Get a new woman for fuck sake, then go and beat her the fuck around. Slowly but surely you will forget my mum and move on to greener beating up wife like pastures.
Me and Alex are kinda starting to get back on track, I dunno how that is gonna go, but with all my luck, I am not surprised if something bad happens to the two of us. Already feeling the strain of everyone acusing me of something or another. To my mother I am a devil child, to Alex I am a liar, cheater and apparently now a whore,to my dad I have always been a whore (what is with people calling virgins whore, fucking hell get the facts straight) to Kaz I am probably being a bitch (with the whole I don't tell her I am angry with her I wait for a while, let the steam build up and blow. Plus, the me not trusting her with my stuff thing, I am not backing down with that one, I have seen to much of my shit get destroyed because of my TRUST),My brother of all people calling me a shit stirrer, if there was anyone who could stir shit successfully it would have to be him. I just feel like the world is on top of my shoulders and I really cannot take the strain any more. I am going snap just very everyone's info.
I feel like I am going crazy, that these past few months has just not been happening, because if they have this shit sucks.
I am still engaged (yey) me and my boyfriend are thinking of spending some quality time in a hotel somewhere up west (hey don't look at me like that I did ask for something cheaper, but he wants it to be special) right now any cherry popping is just out of the question. Even though it is the cure of stress related problems, just not now, not this month and definitely not this year.
People also lying about me, saying I am having secret relationships as well has fucked me up.
God I am being too open again.
No wonder some people call me emo, I get all worked up and stressed out and then I write one of these and its like... what the hell? Is she just so emo or what? I mean except for stupid white chicks, who would willing call themselves an emo... do you realise that you are cussing yourself. I over heard boys talking the other day to a bunch of american metalhead girls saying that they are emo and these girls started laughing, because it is just shameful.
I mean their music is good, yey for the used, hawthorne heights, My Chemical romance and sometimes bullet for my valentine.
I feel like a am trapped, like I have no way to turn, except the way that my mum wants me to turn, because she is blackmailing me practically to become a complete and utter devoted christian.
I have too many assignments to do, so much that they are running out of places to come out from and now are pushing their way through my ass. Plus it is like 02:07 in the morning and my first lecture is at fucking 8:00.. can someone, anyone... tie a noose around this neck and save me from this shit please...
*innocent voice* or at least take me on holiday. *laughs*
A war is about to take place between Kaz and dwaine, 'cept for I have a friend on the opposite side, which i actually think is not talking to me now for this reason. I dunno maybe I am just imagining it , but he has been acting super weird like avoiding me recently. Sent txt's no reply, talked to him online, no reply, left a message on myspace, still no fucking reply... so I give up. The last time I even bumped into me he wasn't even as pally as he used to be. He's totally changed with me, which is kinda scary. I actually feel like a stalker, which adds to his long collection, but I just wanna know if he is talking to me or not. Okay yes I know what you are thinking all sources point to a hell he definitely not talking to you, but I don't know why all of a sudden he would just do that... I would at least have thought that i would have had to do something wrong to cause that.
*SCREAMS* URRRRGGGH. CAN IT JUST ALL FINISH ALREADY.. ALL OF IT. PLEASE. THAT WOULD BE NICE GOD. THANX
SANTA THAT IS WHAT I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS:
for my mum to shut up, her rants at me about christianity is just annoying me
for my father to get a life and stop trying to screw up mine
for my brother to take his head out of his ass and see the godamn light, because he may be in middlesex prison, but even from afar he is pissing me off.
for Kaz and dwaine to stop fighting already. This is getting old, tierd and frankily a bit stale.
for god to stop having me be "special" dont ask.
for all my friends I miss ... scottie (my husband who I haven't seen in ages) Mark (Marky mark the pussy shark) to just come back and be around more often. Them two always knew how to put a smile on my face.
for people to stop annoying me so easily, and can uni stop being so stressful. I mean for fuck sake I like challenges but this is a fucking 90 degree's mountain I am climbing.
God if this week I don't go on a drinking spree, it must be a fucking miracle. That's the only time I drink now. When I haveproblems eating away at me.
Anyways guys see ya later. need mahusive hugs from Alex and David. Since I haven't seen them two in a while. EXCEPT FOR THE MONDAY I CHOOSE TO FORGET. plus, they aint talking anymore. I knew it wouldn't last *sighs*
Need hotel fun *winks at alex* see ya lot later x
but never have
I wished to have parents who could take care of me
be there for me
understand me
But I never did.
I wish I could live alone
but I am bound to my mother
I never can.
This is kinda strange to write but I am worried. Stuff is happening that is out of my control.
I told my brother something I shouldn't and before I know it my dad will know and that will cause more problems for my mum. Apparently, by the words of god I will suffer if I do not come to church soon according to the Amos chapter 5.
It talks about mourning, like death. I dunno, I am just worried. I know I don't really believe all of this is happening, and ecspecially to me but it is. So I can't help worrying. Its just something in me, that i know something bigger is to come. I feel a war brewing on the Kaz and dwaine front and another war between my mum and my dad and guess what, now that my brotehr knows a piece of sensitive information I am not surprised that he will deliver it into the hands of my dad.
Oh god I am confused ... serious, no joke now. I am actually considering church.but, why me? Can't I just get a rest without drama. But no I'm sorry this is corinne natalie hunt of course I don't deserve a break. I wanna cry, I want to run away. I just want to hide is that so much to ask. Everything seems to be going wrong.
Minus uni. Uni is the one thing I feel happy about, I mean my friends there are kick ass cool. Specially Fiona, Ozzie,Ryan, Aj, Toks, Adealson, Tabo, sandra, Treasure, Simmran and boal. But I am so afriad about failure this year, more than any year of college or even more than my gcse's... my gcse's I was kaking myself. But the experience has been so fun.
See I have even started talking like these are my last days, maybe they are.. I dunno. I am just a confused bundle of mess, I will never understand why my dad just cannot let this go. Get a new woman for fuck sake, then go and beat her the fuck around. Slowly but surely you will forget my mum and move on to greener beating up wife like pastures.
Me and Alex are kinda starting to get back on track, I dunno how that is gonna go, but with all my luck, I am not surprised if something bad happens to the two of us. Already feeling the strain of everyone acusing me of something or another. To my mother I am a devil child, to Alex I am a liar, cheater and apparently now a whore,to my dad I have always been a whore (what is with people calling virgins whore, fucking hell get the facts straight) to Kaz I am probably being a bitch (with the whole I don't tell her I am angry with her I wait for a while, let the steam build up and blow. Plus, the me not trusting her with my stuff thing, I am not backing down with that one, I have seen to much of my shit get destroyed because of my TRUST),My brother of all people calling me a shit stirrer, if there was anyone who could stir shit successfully it would have to be him. I just feel like the world is on top of my shoulders and I really cannot take the strain any more. I am going snap just very everyone's info.
I feel like I am going crazy, that these past few months has just not been happening, because if they have this shit sucks.
I am still engaged (yey) me and my boyfriend are thinking of spending some quality time in a hotel somewhere up west (hey don't look at me like that I did ask for something cheaper, but he wants it to be special) right now any cherry popping is just out of the question. Even though it is the cure of stress related problems, just not now, not this month and definitely not this year.
People also lying about me, saying I am having secret relationships as well has fucked me up.
God I am being too open again.
No wonder some people call me emo, I get all worked up and stressed out and then I write one of these and its like... what the hell? Is she just so emo or what? I mean except for stupid white chicks, who would willing call themselves an emo... do you realise that you are cussing yourself. I over heard boys talking the other day to a bunch of american metalhead girls saying that they are emo and these girls started laughing, because it is just shameful.
I mean their music is good, yey for the used, hawthorne heights, My Chemical romance and sometimes bullet for my valentine.
I feel like a am trapped, like I have no way to turn, except the way that my mum wants me to turn, because she is blackmailing me practically to become a complete and utter devoted christian.
I have too many assignments to do, so much that they are running out of places to come out from and now are pushing their way through my ass. Plus it is like 02:07 in the morning and my first lecture is at fucking 8:00.. can someone, anyone... tie a noose around this neck and save me from this shit please...
*innocent voice* or at least take me on holiday. *laughs*
A war is about to take place between Kaz and dwaine, 'cept for I have a friend on the opposite side, which i actually think is not talking to me now for this reason. I dunno maybe I am just imagining it , but he has been acting super weird like avoiding me recently. Sent txt's no reply, talked to him online, no reply, left a message on myspace, still no fucking reply... so I give up. The last time I even bumped into me he wasn't even as pally as he used to be. He's totally changed with me, which is kinda scary. I actually feel like a stalker, which adds to his long collection, but I just wanna know if he is talking to me or not. Okay yes I know what you are thinking all sources point to a hell he definitely not talking to you, but I don't know why all of a sudden he would just do that... I would at least have thought that i would have had to do something wrong to cause that.
*SCREAMS* URRRRGGGH. CAN IT JUST ALL FINISH ALREADY.. ALL OF IT. PLEASE. THAT WOULD BE NICE GOD. THANX
SANTA THAT IS WHAT I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS:
for my mum to shut up, her rants at me about christianity is just annoying me
for my father to get a life and stop trying to screw up mine
for my brother to take his head out of his ass and see the godamn light, because he may be in middlesex prison, but even from afar he is pissing me off.
for Kaz and dwaine to stop fighting already. This is getting old, tierd and frankily a bit stale.
for god to stop having me be "special" dont ask.
for all my friends I miss ... scottie (my husband who I haven't seen in ages) Mark (Marky mark the pussy shark) to just come back and be around more often. Them two always knew how to put a smile on my face.
for people to stop annoying me so easily, and can uni stop being so stressful. I mean for fuck sake I like challenges but this is a fucking 90 degree's mountain I am climbing.
God if this week I don't go on a drinking spree, it must be a fucking miracle. That's the only time I drink now. When I haveproblems eating away at me.
Anyways guys see ya later. need mahusive hugs from Alex and David. Since I haven't seen them two in a while. EXCEPT FOR THE MONDAY I CHOOSE TO FORGET. plus, they aint talking anymore. I knew it wouldn't last *sighs*
Need hotel fun *winks at alex* see ya lot later x
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Update in bulletpoints. aint got time to write full lengths of crap.
- Still engaged although there have been some problems... some problems is an understatement.
+ I did actually manage to get my coursework in due to a little protest outside of my lecturers office. *laughs* I love my uni friends.
- I am buried and when I mean buried I mean, can't breathe, keeps me awake at night tossing and turning, having dreams of books chasing me buried. Under assignments, plus I have a time constrained assignment sometimes this week. DAMN BUSINESS. PPD and quantative Methods portfolios to give in. *cries*
- I keep on getting sick for no reason at all.
+ Uni sponsered pub crawls are the most funniest fucking thing you could ever attend
-+ I have a stalker, although he is quite a cool friend, he is very very much after me. Have I suddenly become some goddess that everyone is suddenly having feelings for me. I feel like Kaz, she has half of the male population attracted to her.
+ uni friends are planning another pub crawl *w00ts* spending more uni money wahhhey
- I kinda went mad on my student loan and I only have a hundred left from 1,600.
- I gotta move house again, fucking father won't leave us the fuck alone.
- I need to clothes.
- My mp3 player two weeks ago mysteriously stopped working. Fucking piece of sh-- *bangs the fuck out of it* umm that actually sounds a bit wrong.
+ I got drunk this week, I have done that in ages. eventhough it is still boring to me. but when I am drunk I can't help but be funnier than usual.
- My watch broke, my gorge watch, well technically Kaz broke it.
+ can't wait until I see dee. lol
+ I did actually manage to get my coursework in due to a little protest outside of my lecturers office. *laughs* I love my uni friends.
- I am buried and when I mean buried I mean, can't breathe, keeps me awake at night tossing and turning, having dreams of books chasing me buried. Under assignments, plus I have a time constrained assignment sometimes this week. DAMN BUSINESS. PPD and quantative Methods portfolios to give in. *cries*
- I keep on getting sick for no reason at all.
+ Uni sponsered pub crawls are the most funniest fucking thing you could ever attend
-+ I have a stalker, although he is quite a cool friend, he is very very much after me. Have I suddenly become some goddess that everyone is suddenly having feelings for me. I feel like Kaz, she has half of the male population attracted to her.
+ uni friends are planning another pub crawl *w00ts* spending more uni money wahhhey
- I kinda went mad on my student loan and I only have a hundred left from 1,600.
- I gotta move house again, fucking father won't leave us the fuck alone.
- I need to clothes.
- My mp3 player two weeks ago mysteriously stopped working. Fucking piece of sh-- *bangs the fuck out of it* umm that actually sounds a bit wrong.
+ I got drunk this week, I have done that in ages. eventhough it is still boring to me. but when I am drunk I can't help but be funnier than usual.
- My watch broke, my gorge watch, well technically Kaz broke it.
+ can't wait until I see dee. lol
Monday, November 13, 2006
I failed my assignment because of this fucked up shit
I HATE STUPID UNFACILITATED LIBRARIES
I HATE WOMEN WHO DON'T KNOW FUCK ABOUT COMPUTERS
I HATE FLOPPY DISKS
I HATE THAT SHOP MAPLIN
I HATE MY LUCK
I HATE MYSELF NOW, JUST WHEN I SPENT SO MUCH TIME LOVING MYSELF.
I HATE NEW STAFF IN LIBRARIES
I AM STARTING TO HATE AMANDA STAPLES
WORKING IN ORGANISATIONS SUCKS ASS
I HATE GREENWICH NOT WORKING SYSTEM.
I HATE ASSIGNMENTS
GOD DAMN IT TODAY I EVEN HATE YOUR MUM I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I JUST DO OKAY........
UNI WAS GREAT UNTIL TODAY.
I WANNA DIE TODAY.
GIVE ME A FUCKING KNIFE AND I SWEAR TO GOD I WOULD PLUNGE IT THROUGH MY HEART.
EVERYTHING I'VE WORKED FOR GONE.
MY LUCK, MY GOD DMAN LUCK
I HATE WOMEN WHO DON'T KNOW FUCK ABOUT COMPUTERS
I HATE FLOPPY DISKS
I HATE THAT SHOP MAPLIN
I HATE MY LUCK
I HATE MYSELF NOW, JUST WHEN I SPENT SO MUCH TIME LOVING MYSELF.
I HATE NEW STAFF IN LIBRARIES
I AM STARTING TO HATE AMANDA STAPLES
WORKING IN ORGANISATIONS SUCKS ASS
I HATE GREENWICH NOT WORKING SYSTEM.
I HATE ASSIGNMENTS
GOD DAMN IT TODAY I EVEN HATE YOUR MUM I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I JUST DO OKAY........
UNI WAS GREAT UNTIL TODAY.
I WANNA DIE TODAY.
GIVE ME A FUCKING KNIFE AND I SWEAR TO GOD I WOULD PLUNGE IT THROUGH MY HEART.
EVERYTHING I'VE WORKED FOR GONE.
MY LUCK, MY GOD DMAN LUCK
Thursday, October 26, 2006
*Bollocks chants* Inme comeback you were fucking great.
Okay, day after InME and I am wrecked. I mean nearly every inch of my body aches completely. I can't even move my neck properly because I was headbanging
sooooo hard, my arms hurt because they were in the air most of the time.The whole day was sooo great I would post up pictures and videos I took, most of them are either blurry because I had a live moshpit around me and the video clips sound like Bdjfojhgajdgal;dgapdofjg;dofjgldfigklg. Basically like shit. But least I still have the memories. Kaz who like usual just had to get drunk before we I met up with her. She kinda sobered up when we got into the que to go in. Where we met Alan who has the cutest baby mohican ever its so cute. When we actually got in we saw the shirts. I went past the brigade shirts and I just had to get one. Not to mention a signed poster, which is slightly wrecked because I squished it into my back pocket. So Alan, who grabbed a bench because he wasn't going into the mosh pit that was dead, I mean death for a day were playing. These people were going on like they weren't giving them enough energy,they were claping ever so often but that was it.
They were great I wanted to get a shirt of theirs, a brigade shirt and punisher jumper, but you will know why I couldn't after.
Anyway, me pranching around, getting water for Alan, myself and Kaz and people looking at me kinda wierd. I mean I am use to it. Lol. I love it when I go with Alex, these girls are giving me dirty looks.I love it.
So anyway, Death for a Day, finished their set and may I say it was good but I was making fucking sure, I was near the front for Brigade, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND I HAVE A NEWLY FOUND FASCINATION FOR THEM.
I went into the crowd and me and Kaz pushed our way near to the front, which was good. Will came on looking as fucking sexy as ever *waves hands infront of face* and Naoto came out with a brigade poster cellotaped together around his head lol. I swear me and this other guy was the only ones who knew who they were. We were singing everything,everyword. lol.I swear everyone around me was looking at me for some indication of when to start jumping and stuff, because when I stopped jumping the people around me went dead, I can now actually say I single handedly livend up a pit lol. Some two guys were saying "lets stop the brigade shit and bring on Inme" lol and then will came out with "do you really think inme are gonna come out now... it is like quater to 9 so everyone do you wanna hear these to guys talk or do you wanna hear us play". Crowd started screaming their heads off. everytime it went a little quiet I had to say "will you are so fucking hottt" lol! Someone also blew up a condom and everyone was using it as a ballon chucking it around the place. I think their last song was Null and void, I started screaming (one of my favourite songs) the drum bit I was proper doing the fisting in the air, cause I knew. I was so proud to actually know their songs lol. (sad bitch)
So after that Brigade finished their set with Will posing all over the place for pictures lol. I went to go in and find Alan, so he could find us for inme, I know their was a chance of me not getting back to Kaz
but I risked it, cus Kaz was pretty much near the front.Lets just say this when inme came out I was with Alan and Kaz was lost in the people, specially rude people. Oh by this point I had already knocked a skinny white girl out. Well I met another black girl, who was already drunk and basically she pushed me into the crowd of people to try and get back to Kaz and apparently I elbowed this girl in the temple. lol. I think its because this little emo bitch, has never been to a gig before and doesn't know the principle of getting water, plus she looked liek she hadn't eaten in a while lol. So her friends start on me instead of the black girl pushing me. I was like look, she pushed me, she knocked me into her, so basically chill take your friend to get water. She was like but we are going to miss inme, well fine have you friend collapse more and die from being trampled on and I went back to Alan.
So me and Alan, was screaming like mad at INME well I was.When they first came on teh music from the marvel comic (should I say anime) The punisher came on and then they kinda mixed into underdose that was so crazy. I didn't know that Dave has alopecia, that's why all of his pictures he is bald suddenly. He did say though " come on make some noise so we can get this shit out of my brain"
they played a few songs underdose, the place went crazy and faster the chase, so you know. Then all of a sudden dave said "well people that the end unless if I can hear you shout bollocks all the way from the changing room" and he walked off stage. lol the funniest thing is ther crowd errupted in bollocks chants and there was no appearance.
Until people started givng up where I made a joke to Kaz saying its next morning INME have gone and we are all here still chanting bollocks. So they came out and wowed us with another bunch of great hits thrown at us plus, when white butterfly was sung,lighters started appearing everywhere.
During the performance of twilight, Dave swicthed the tune from twilight to Acdc's back in black it was sooooooo fucking great.
To end it all with chamber, the whole place erupted in people singing. People were crowd surfing to chamber, have you heard how slow that song is. There also was this woman infront of us who was salsa dancing to so you know. I was like what the hell. Kaz was like did she think she came to a salsa club lol.
It was perfect, Alan who was harrasing me all night (lexi calm down it was nothing)
Um... he was just tryng to touch me ass alot and biting me for some reason. Me as well as Kaz.
So the gig was done, I sweating like I had just jumped in a bath. Plus me Kaz and Alan did kinda have a water fight. Alan had water going down his leather trousers *laughs* Went to the cloakroom and Kaz kept on bugging me about buying her a shirt so I had to sacrifice buying my punisher jumper *cries*
Got one inme shirt that makes 'em look like south park lol a girlie inme top and a brigade shirt.but while we were there Will from brigade was like two inches from me (OKAY NOT TWO INCHES) but he was close enough. Wanted to ask him for a pic, I was too shy and apparently Dave was around the corner.
So anyone who didn't go I can tell you something, you guys fucking missed out. Best gig of my life. lol.
Gig: wicked
Bands: GREEEEEAAAATTTT
Kaz and I: Allll rocked outttt.
x x x x x
sooooo hard, my arms hurt because they were in the air most of the time.The whole day was sooo great I would post up pictures and videos I took, most of them are either blurry because I had a live moshpit around me and the video clips sound like Bdjfojhgajdgal;dgapdofjg;dofjgldfigklg. Basically like shit. But least I still have the memories. Kaz who like usual just had to get drunk before we I met up with her. She kinda sobered up when we got into the que to go in. Where we met Alan who has the cutest baby mohican ever its so cute. When we actually got in we saw the shirts. I went past the brigade shirts and I just had to get one. Not to mention a signed poster, which is slightly wrecked because I squished it into my back pocket. So Alan, who grabbed a bench because he wasn't going into the mosh pit that was dead, I mean death for a day were playing. These people were going on like they weren't giving them enough energy,they were claping ever so often but that was it.
They were great I wanted to get a shirt of theirs, a brigade shirt and punisher jumper, but you will know why I couldn't after.
Anyway, me pranching around, getting water for Alan, myself and Kaz and people looking at me kinda wierd. I mean I am use to it. Lol. I love it when I go with Alex, these girls are giving me dirty looks.I love it.
So anyway, Death for a Day, finished their set and may I say it was good but I was making fucking sure, I was near the front for Brigade, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND I HAVE A NEWLY FOUND FASCINATION FOR THEM.
I went into the crowd and me and Kaz pushed our way near to the front, which was good. Will came on looking as fucking sexy as ever *waves hands infront of face* and Naoto came out with a brigade poster cellotaped together around his head lol. I swear me and this other guy was the only ones who knew who they were. We were singing everything,everyword. lol.I swear everyone around me was looking at me for some indication of when to start jumping and stuff, because when I stopped jumping the people around me went dead, I can now actually say I single handedly livend up a pit lol. Some two guys were saying "lets stop the brigade shit and bring on Inme" lol and then will came out with "do you really think inme are gonna come out now... it is like quater to 9 so everyone do you wanna hear these to guys talk or do you wanna hear us play". Crowd started screaming their heads off. everytime it went a little quiet I had to say "will you are so fucking hottt" lol! Someone also blew up a condom and everyone was using it as a ballon chucking it around the place. I think their last song was Null and void, I started screaming (one of my favourite songs) the drum bit I was proper doing the fisting in the air, cause I knew. I was so proud to actually know their songs lol. (sad bitch)
So after that Brigade finished their set with Will posing all over the place for pictures lol. I went to go in and find Alan, so he could find us for inme, I know their was a chance of me not getting back to Kaz
but I risked it, cus Kaz was pretty much near the front.Lets just say this when inme came out I was with Alan and Kaz was lost in the people, specially rude people. Oh by this point I had already knocked a skinny white girl out. Well I met another black girl, who was already drunk and basically she pushed me into the crowd of people to try and get back to Kaz and apparently I elbowed this girl in the temple. lol. I think its because this little emo bitch, has never been to a gig before and doesn't know the principle of getting water, plus she looked liek she hadn't eaten in a while lol. So her friends start on me instead of the black girl pushing me. I was like look, she pushed me, she knocked me into her, so basically chill take your friend to get water. She was like but we are going to miss inme, well fine have you friend collapse more and die from being trampled on and I went back to Alan.
So me and Alan, was screaming like mad at INME well I was.When they first came on teh music from the marvel comic (should I say anime) The punisher came on and then they kinda mixed into underdose that was so crazy. I didn't know that Dave has alopecia, that's why all of his pictures he is bald suddenly. He did say though " come on make some noise so we can get this shit out of my brain"
they played a few songs underdose, the place went crazy and faster the chase, so you know. Then all of a sudden dave said "well people that the end unless if I can hear you shout bollocks all the way from the changing room" and he walked off stage. lol the funniest thing is ther crowd errupted in bollocks chants and there was no appearance.
Until people started givng up where I made a joke to Kaz saying its next morning INME have gone and we are all here still chanting bollocks. So they came out and wowed us with another bunch of great hits thrown at us plus, when white butterfly was sung,lighters started appearing everywhere.
During the performance of twilight, Dave swicthed the tune from twilight to Acdc's back in black it was sooooooo fucking great.
To end it all with chamber, the whole place erupted in people singing. People were crowd surfing to chamber, have you heard how slow that song is. There also was this woman infront of us who was salsa dancing to so you know. I was like what the hell. Kaz was like did she think she came to a salsa club lol.
It was perfect, Alan who was harrasing me all night (lexi calm down it was nothing)
Um... he was just tryng to touch me ass alot and biting me for some reason. Me as well as Kaz.
So the gig was done, I sweating like I had just jumped in a bath. Plus me Kaz and Alan did kinda have a water fight. Alan had water going down his leather trousers *laughs* Went to the cloakroom and Kaz kept on bugging me about buying her a shirt so I had to sacrifice buying my punisher jumper *cries*
Got one inme shirt that makes 'em look like south park lol a girlie inme top and a brigade shirt.but while we were there Will from brigade was like two inches from me (OKAY NOT TWO INCHES) but he was close enough. Wanted to ask him for a pic, I was too shy and apparently Dave was around the corner.
So anyone who didn't go I can tell you something, you guys fucking missed out. Best gig of my life. lol.
Gig: wicked
Bands: GREEEEEAAAATTTT
Kaz and I: Allll rocked outttt.
x x x x x
Monday, October 23, 2006
- Feed my immune system to the sharks -
Okay hey guys... just writing in my blog because once again I am t home and I am sick. I hate being sick, but the thing that is making it worse is that, I have already paid to go and see inme and I feel I might be way to sick to go. I got a pounding headache, my throat feels all scratchy and the back of my eyes are hurting from any sunlight, which is also bad because as I am typing I am looking at a bright screen.
The initial plan of the inme gig was to go to the gig, where I get to first of all swoon at how hot all the members from brigade are lol, then hopefully enjoy the gig, leave, get some food and then drinking fest. I'm not up for the drinking thing these days. I mean it gets boring, yes you get the same fucked feeling over and over and over again, bit bored of it to be honest. But, the people around seem not to be, because all they do, do is drink. I have uni and stuff and I guess sometimes they think I am being uptight and superior (which I am not) I just find drinking till I wanna puke really dull. The thing I also hate th emost is when kids start doing it, like its some whole new fucking discovery lol, they start like "corinne please tell me you drink" to which I say "yes, I started drinking while you were still playing with your fucking barbies, and I'm bored"
Awww my gland feel like shit, I feel like shit. Kaz is saying that I must come on wednesday and that I must drink. Sometimes I swear she doesn't hear me when I talk. I AM SICK, THE LAST THING ON MY BRAIN IS ALCOHOL. I have a PPD assignment to complete, I mean I've started it, but I haven't organized it on pages into a presentation nothing. I feel ill to type talk or anything.
One good thing though I got my watch from Hong Kong on ebay, which I won *does a . dance* oh yeaaaaahhhhhhh, plus alex sent me my engagement ring in the post. Kaz said ph that must be some cheap ring, but I don't care I know it comes from his heart so to hell with what everyone thinks lol.
I wanna be well and not sick, sick is bad. Look I have even started with the crazy talk, flying elephants, ghetto pigs, guy starting at the edge of my bed holding up cheese.
Oh yeah guys I'm starting to try anbd make templates again, I've been neglecting getting money off people for a while lol! but Now yeah *kkkkeeerrrrrrchhhhiiinnnnngggg* its money time. Alex Hopefully should be coming down on saturday he has been coming down alot more recently. I think he is home sick. *gives Lex a hug*
Anyway the light from the lappie is killing me gonna go and try and rest now. Got to make myself well I just gotta.I only have by the end of tomorrow to do so. Anyway guys cya.... and always remember the guy with the cheese at the end of your bed, he will come while you are ill and not of full health. HE WILLLLLLL.
The initial plan of the inme gig was to go to the gig, where I get to first of all swoon at how hot all the members from brigade are lol, then hopefully enjoy the gig, leave, get some food and then drinking fest. I'm not up for the drinking thing these days. I mean it gets boring, yes you get the same fucked feeling over and over and over again, bit bored of it to be honest. But, the people around seem not to be, because all they do, do is drink. I have uni and stuff and I guess sometimes they think I am being uptight and superior (which I am not) I just find drinking till I wanna puke really dull. The thing I also hate th emost is when kids start doing it, like its some whole new fucking discovery lol, they start like "corinne please tell me you drink" to which I say "yes, I started drinking while you were still playing with your fucking barbies, and I'm bored"
Awww my gland feel like shit, I feel like shit. Kaz is saying that I must come on wednesday and that I must drink. Sometimes I swear she doesn't hear me when I talk. I AM SICK, THE LAST THING ON MY BRAIN IS ALCOHOL. I have a PPD assignment to complete, I mean I've started it, but I haven't organized it on pages into a presentation nothing. I feel ill to type talk or anything.
One good thing though I got my watch from Hong Kong on ebay, which I won *does a . dance* oh yeaaaaahhhhhhh, plus alex sent me my engagement ring in the post. Kaz said ph that must be some cheap ring, but I don't care I know it comes from his heart so to hell with what everyone thinks lol.
I wanna be well and not sick, sick is bad. Look I have even started with the crazy talk, flying elephants, ghetto pigs, guy starting at the edge of my bed holding up cheese.
Oh yeah guys I'm starting to try anbd make templates again, I've been neglecting getting money off people for a while lol! but Now yeah *kkkkeeerrrrrrchhhhiiinnnnngggg* its money time. Alex Hopefully should be coming down on saturday he has been coming down alot more recently. I think he is home sick. *gives Lex a hug*
Anyway the light from the lappie is killing me gonna go and try and rest now. Got to make myself well I just gotta.I only have by the end of tomorrow to do so. Anyway guys cya.... and always remember the guy with the cheese at the end of your bed, he will come while you are ill and not of full health. HE WILLLLLLL.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Ha apparently what my birthday says about me. I must admit most of it is true, just some part really aren't.
| What does your birth month reveal about you? | |
 July Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studyin | |
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