So steady as she goes...

Okay people first order of buisness is first for this entry and is that I have to post up this poem...Yeah I know its kinda crappy, but I witnessed the other day, something that made me sick to my stomach. I hope this person, who this is about reads it, because he knows that what most of the people in the world see or will end up seeing about him, if you get what I mean... So its actually 1 poem and 1 song put together that I made. They both fit this situation so forgive me if this is very jumpy...


His words blew away/to forget that people have eyes.

He stands there infront of everyone
thinking he is so cool
No pictures can be seen
at first glance.
Acanvas that normally holds people life stories
Clean.

But take a deep look beyond the surface
Through his jokes
His ego.
Behind his walls built so strong
he prays that not even
nuclear weapons
can be part of its destruction.
Here lays a soul burdened with insecurities
A broken smashed "man" if he can even dare call himself that
as well as a heart full of splinters
Of women in the past
He has begged secretly in poem and song
not to break his heart and leave him bleeding
that he "hates surprises".
But truly they always find out who he really is
who he has covered to be
disgusted
they turn on their heels
forget him
and most happily move on without him.
Trying to erase the memories he created
I should know
the mistakes they involved themselves in
not even acknowledging his ex like status.

Wake the fuck up
and take a look around you
everyone has a story to tell
I know yours hear the words do they bleed you
unwinding in truth and in motion
everyone knows but too afraid to tell
about you living your sad and lonely life
with mummy's money begging for
praise in hell.

So come on lets stack them up like dominoes
standing side by side.
How he publicises the fact that he rejects society
But in truth and in matter they reject him.
Can't face reality
He drags himself out of their presence everyday
to crumble in his room
infront of his computer
spending endless hours
perfecting the character he plays
in messageboards
chatrooms
The only "friends" he has.
Gathering peoples personalities
and adding them to his own
nothing of originality to actually be shown.
You can't talk about other peoples failures
without seeing your own
So lets push those dominoes down and watch your faults
tumble.

Wake the fuck up
and take a look around you
everyone has a story to tell
I know yours hear the words do they bleed you
everyone knows but too afraid to tell
about you living your sad and lonley life
buying shit to make you happy
a man of ill mannered will.

we can't wait to watch you fall
I'll be happy to see you break
I'll stand with the winning team
the people not good enough for you
the people you undeniably hate.
You play no importance to any of us
do you even play importance to your "friends"
I didn't think so
Just like your bestfriend can drop you easily
and throw you back with no hope into the deep end.
I thought I'd waste my breath this time
I thought I'd make you see
your no better than any of us
when she disowns you
when your use is over and done
we will cheer.

Come down from the clouds have we
joined us finally on earth
Crash and burn in heaps
and in mass
crawl to the mirror and take a good look at the reflection
ugly from the words that you have said.

So slap another card down
and watch us laugh
as another one will only realise
how fucking selfish you are
"gave her no hope for tommorrow"
only wishing you were that special
his words blew away with the wind
to be free from the curse that he placed.

His words blew away
oh so far
His words blew away with the--
they weren't that important anyway
His words blew away with the wind
fresh winds fill her


Hey anyway... what has been up with me. Nothing much really, bickering friends, me and Alex becoming slightly like a married couple and other lovely crazy and smile worthy things.This morning the raconteurs released their album and damn that stuff is hot ecspecially the song "steady as she goes" its a song you can imagine in the background while seth from the o.c on a skateboard goes past. *drools* Adam Brody.

Plus, the white psp has finally, after me seeing it like in December has crawled its ass slowly but very surely to us in the u.k and the pakaging looks so perfect. Ignore me I am just going on one of my technology rants.

Um meant to meeting up with my friend called eddy. Got a myspace account due to my cousin Dee and others keep on annoying me to get one so go and add me if you love me .
http://www.myspace.com/imperialshadowess *smiles*

Been studying with Alex today.. got some studying done *smiles* although instead of us being ahead in sociology, we never got on to it. Lol! We kept on coming out with pure randomness today... his funniest one today in the middle of the quiet library may I add "Damn I've never seen a weave that bad.. oh my god" as this girl was walking by. I had to hold his mouth 'cus he shouted it. awww my gosh he is so funny, but he said something sweet today, which reminded me he was leaving in four months. "how the fuck am I going to let you go in september" and truly all I answered to that was I have no clue.

So, still waiting for damn lsc to process my damn student loan form and send it back as quick as possible if I made any mistakes, because from my friend fran they sent it back to her four or five times to tell her that she didn't put her middle name in one place, even though she had filled it out almost everywhere else. Lol!

Just downloading a few tracks right now and meant to be taking off to go and see Kaz. I am so tired I am pracically worn thin. Need sleep. So I'll be going now Might make another update during the week.

"So steady as she goes. Steady as she goes"