I'm at my limit

hey everyone, just letting you know I might go missing for a while on everything this includes: My blog,DA,Blades of Seireitei,facebook,myspace etc...

This is because I have a serious and dangerous cyst, which needs to be removed and is extremely painful. I am very ill at the mo... and now it has come to the point that I can't sit or be active at all, can't eat and I am pretty much weak because of that.

I am hoping though that god will prevent it from getting worse and after it is removed that it will never return.

Sorry guys I'm too weak to type anything else

ttyl x

Happy B-day. You can stand under my umbrella.

Yeah it was my bday yesterday *dances around*. Pretty eventful, I had fun, but one person always tries to spoil my fun (must remember no ranting).

I had the first ever bday cake made out of pita bread and the biggest candle known to man in the middle (that was excellent) and we ate it all with cheese (yummm cheese).

There was craziness, seeing people I haven't seen in years. Becoming groupies, me walking around like a walking,talking birthday party *looks at everybody* What?! Kazzie attacked me with ballons, Loads of them.

I got some great presents, and I thank everyone who gave me a present,they were all so lovely *hugs you all* plus cards and actually showing up on my bday... *even more hugs*

Anyway, my mood plummeted during the night, and I think it affected everyone else, because I got a call from someone, who I wish no longer to name by name (you ass) who started wish death upon me (specific words being... I hope you die on that operation table you evil bitch, cow. I hate you. How dare you have fun on your birthday, while I'm miserable) because I wouldn't take them up on their offer.
I said no the first few hundred times what makes you think one more would make a difference.

I was so happy I couldn't feel my back pain during the night, it was until this morning, omg the pain kicked in. I feel so damn old, lol. I'm 20 years of age, 16 mentally and have an 80 year olds body. Well come in visit me in hospital everyone lol.

I am going to try and put the pics that I have of my bday up (there are not many) in my photo album. The link is in the navigation. Since everyone is making me sign up to facebook and myspace and other damn networking sites then I might as well show everyone.

My brother finally text me, this cheap message. 'Happy birthday sis holla at me when you can bye' but I am kinda happy because I still got a message from him. Its better than nothing right? I think he hates me now. I don't know why, I wish he didn't... I haven't done anything wrong, not anything that I know of. He is one of those people I love too much and anything he does to me I just accept. * feels a bit down* *slaps self*

Anyway, Happy stuff, ummm I'm going to the beach next week, dont know why the weather has been crappy.

I might get my new Zen Vision M because my other one decided the colour on the screen would give up on me.

GEEZ I really haven't got much going on at the moment have I? Damn you back, as soon asd they fix you, I WANT TO GET BACK ON MY FEET.

Anyway I'm done

Love ya

Cordie x

Happy Bday Blog - You're the best blog a girl could have lol...

Yey! Another year and another bday. Wow three years of writing this crap lol. Nah to be honest this blog has served me well. It kept me sane at times. So blog I thank you *huggles your 0's and 1's* you have been good to me.

Ahhhh its my bday in two days. Gosh I can't believe it I'm going to be 20 (I'm very scared, I officially have to grown up) I mean I have the body of an 80 year old because of thee
pains and the problems wrong with it; and I have the mind of a sixteen year old... dirty and joking all the time.

Anyway *waves* I have got to attempt in my current state to clean my room, this should be fun. *rolls eyes* bye.

Too much road to cover and yeah its a bitch I'm still behind.

Okay I said I would refrain from ranting. Which I have, Actually I haven't written anything at all *slaps hand* I bet this will make nadia feel better. oh btw nadia thankyou for telling me about the sale on Naruto dvds but I still can't believe you bought 3 sets... Why You only need one.Wait on second... your planning on selling them on arent you? damn you child. lol.
Okay my eyes hurt and is giving me migrane because for two days I have worked trying for the first time to colour in something that I have drawn. Bleach Fan Art. It took me two days to be patient and do the outline and colour it in, then when it came to the background. I had no will left and gave it any old background but it still came out okay. check it out >>>>>FIRST COLOURED PIC<<<<<Hopefully one day I will become as good as Fran. Blissychild You own all DA artists period.

Today we got our new house. Nice area.. private housing. I'm back to Anerley room size conditions. It is going to make me miss my spacious room that I have now. I wont have no Tv or desk. But I can Deal with that I too. I had to before, I guess I have to stop being selfish and deal with it. It has a tiny kitchen and an Okay livingroom and tiny bathroom and of course my mothers mansion size bedroom.
But I wont miss, the mice and rats that have started to appear in the kitchen and the problems wrong with this house. Plus, my family knowing where we are and could kill us at anytime (trust me if they got a good shot and wouldn't go to prison for it ... trust me they would take it)
I guess I'll have to party in the space I have now and get as much of it in my system before I move into that house.

Um made a bleach messageboard.. (dont smile fran you did this to me)

Its my bday next week on tuesday. Yeah you all better remember that. Plus another year for the blog as it has another bday yeyness.

Omg must buy rockfest tickets or I will be screwed, eventhough certain stalkers are going I must go. I will go, come on Brigade and INME under one roof. I will be mad to miss this.
Back problems (yeah my cyst is trying to grow back praying to god I wont have to go through the surgery because it takes a long time to heal from that and last time during that op my heart stopped or I stopped breathing. Either way, I had a huge tube down my darn throat when I woke up) or not, I will be there jumping (oh I can imagine the pain now) and singing for my life ... so whose with me? *cordie looks around and hears nothing but silence* Anybody?!? lol.
Uni results have come out except I dont know what I got because stupid me has forgotten my Gateway details.

For some odd reason though I want one of those digital photo frames, but I might as well forget about one of those, because eventho it is tiny I aint gonna have no where to put it in my new room XD.

Plus I must state this for no reason Byakuka is one fine piece of ass. Smexyness, just overflows mate. *cough* anyway.... um bye *waves*