Hey everyone I am actually meant to be at church right now. I am cuddled up in a blanket and not feeling too well, my head is still funky and my eyes really hurt.*cries*
I Don't really have anything to say except.
I brought a new dvd player, because the other one decided it was going to break. I bought the same one (because its cute) but in silver.
I dont know even why I started this entry I mean I have been writing tons of these of recent. I dont know I thnk I perfer doing this than having long convos on msn or human contact.I am kind of liking being by myself, and not having to explain and sit and talk to people. This is all takes to long to do these days and I just come out of it feeling exhausted.
I can say to one person, who I actually miss. Dave, you were so right mate, you were so right and I chose not to listen to you. I should have taken you up on manchester lol.
The people I thought really did understand me, the people who I thought I can trust... Ha .. you really can't. Its DTA all the way now.
Anyway apparently my uni friends are going out today as well today (they went out yesterday), might as well go and have fun with them.
cya round x x x
Saturday, May 26, 2007
Friday, May 25, 2007
Random things I got of Komal
RULES:1. Put Your itunes on Shuffle2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME (just name!!!) DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDSIF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?Absurd
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?Strange and beautiful (see my Zen vision m speaks the truth XD Kidding.)
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? These arms of mine (lol)
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? Will you (shakes around and headbangs)
WHATS YOUR LIFES PURPOSE? Everytime
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? I miss you
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Unforgivable sinner (lol)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS? I'm not Okay (you damn right look at what
damn people have done to me)
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? Too lost in you
WHAT IS 2+2?Killing me softly
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE? Until the day I die
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Error operator
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Guillotine (lol)
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? Die Romantic (wahey)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? *laughs* Bow down and
worship him. *still cracking up*
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? Stockholm syndrome
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?Because of you (damn that song should never be at a wedding unless if I am marrying chris or my dad and marrying my dad ewww incest)
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? (nah this harsh ) cries in vain.
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?Dice (well its from the o.c so yeah your not half wrong)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? Take it off (lol yeah that's what Aj would frikkin say. Too afraid to take off them clothes are ya.)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?I'm loving it (what exactly)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? Take me under (that definately does not right)
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS: Every six seconds.
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?Strange and beautiful (see my Zen vision m speaks the truth XD Kidding.)
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? These arms of mine (lol)
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? Will you (shakes around and headbangs)
WHATS YOUR LIFES PURPOSE? Everytime
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? I miss you
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? Unforgivable sinner (lol)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS? I'm not Okay (you damn right look at what
damn people have done to me)
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? Too lost in you
WHAT IS 2+2?Killing me softly
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE? Until the day I die
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Error operator
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Guillotine (lol)
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? Die Romantic (wahey)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? *laughs* Bow down and
worship him. *still cracking up*
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? Stockholm syndrome
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?Because of you (damn that song should never be at a wedding unless if I am marrying chris or my dad and marrying my dad ewww incest)
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? (nah this harsh ) cries in vain.
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?Dice (well its from the o.c so yeah your not half wrong)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? Take it off (lol yeah that's what Aj would frikkin say. Too afraid to take off them clothes are ya.)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?I'm loving it (what exactly)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? Take me under (that definately does not right)
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS: Every six seconds.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Topic: Growing up, People changing like hell they do.
So here is my theory, on the bus home I have been contemplating all the factors that add up to people changing. people wont like it and probably wont agree with it so I warn you now.
Okay today I got a lecture about people growing up and people changing from Kaz and Jay. Basically, we saw charlotte today (Yeah I just had to say I would just laugh if charlotte was there) Its not that I hate her and want to hack her head off ... no I really don't. I just don't want to be anywhere near her.
They say people change as they get older. I don't believe that crap. Basically to change meaning the would change the way they are totally, think and react to to things, that they someway have to change their entire perspective, to your ideal. of to how you have wanted them to be changed. O r maybe not in to your ideal, just a person, which must be taken on as someone completely different.
Making all your wrongs that people find in you completely right.
You can't sit there and cater to every one's way they want to change you.
To me, that's impossible, so when people say they have changed I normally smile and say that's nice for them, but after a few months, this "change" wears away in to nothingness and here we are again, at the same old layer we first saw and started with and once again hated.
To me saying that people have changed, is like smoke and trickery. Illusions created in the inner intention to fool you. But pull away the smiles, and the fake laughter and the clothes and attitude and guess what you have got, the same old person you fell out once before.
So I understand this whole concept of being a christian to forgiving and forgetting, but the best way of forgiving and forgetting is keep away as far as possible,Yes, you can do all the pleasantries of hello and goodbye and so forth or how you would love to do you pleasantries. but also keeping away avoids these fake conversations about how you are? and what you are up to? because really behind all those little speeches is are hidden messages of that underlying need to be better than the other, or to show that we have grown this whole new personality and gained this whole new world and perspective on things and once again that precious word "changed"
But really its all fake.
I no longer want to do fake.
I no longer want to talk about the good old days and how we have all changed. Take chantelle prime example. she back came after her 30 second rape, nice clean clothes, unscratched, no dna under her fingernails and left . She then returns after months and months of not seeing her.
I've changed she exclaims as I first see her, I don't need men like shaun in my life. Funny enough, who is she with now and treating her like complete trash while he is cheating on her with his ex.... Oh right *looks over chantelle's shoulder* Oh Hi shaun.
So we may get older, facially, maybe we might grow to like different things, but one thing we keep, is how we make our friendships. how appreciate those around us, our main intention for that friend.
Friendships like I have had with a couple people in the past, I was a door mat. I help people do everything for them, even when I have things to be doing for myself. if they said "hey cordie I need your help could you...." I would be like yeah I was in the middle of something but I'll will help. But they would use my name as a scape goat. To know that "good old reliable cordie" would always
be there to help them in their time of need and disappear in her own.
So its not hatred, I just feel the further I stay away the more I can protect myself, for slipping back into old habits.
I would have tried to explain this to jay and Kaz, but its hard to get a word in sometimes and when I do, there is not point in it, so most of debating is not worth the hassle.
Okay I think I am done, Yep I think I am.
Okay today I got a lecture about people growing up and people changing from Kaz and Jay. Basically, we saw charlotte today (Yeah I just had to say I would just laugh if charlotte was there) Its not that I hate her and want to hack her head off ... no I really don't. I just don't want to be anywhere near her.
They say people change as they get older. I don't believe that crap. Basically to change meaning the would change the way they are totally, think and react to to things, that they someway have to change their entire perspective, to your ideal. of to how you have wanted them to be changed. O r maybe not in to your ideal, just a person, which must be taken on as someone completely different.
Making all your wrongs that people find in you completely right.
You can't sit there and cater to every one's way they want to change you.
To me, that's impossible, so when people say they have changed I normally smile and say that's nice for them, but after a few months, this "change" wears away in to nothingness and here we are again, at the same old layer we first saw and started with and once again hated.
To me saying that people have changed, is like smoke and trickery. Illusions created in the inner intention to fool you. But pull away the smiles, and the fake laughter and the clothes and attitude and guess what you have got, the same old person you fell out once before.
So I understand this whole concept of being a christian to forgiving and forgetting, but the best way of forgiving and forgetting is keep away as far as possible,Yes, you can do all the pleasantries of hello and goodbye and so forth or how you would love to do you pleasantries. but also keeping away avoids these fake conversations about how you are? and what you are up to? because really behind all those little speeches is are hidden messages of that underlying need to be better than the other, or to show that we have grown this whole new personality and gained this whole new world and perspective on things and once again that precious word "changed"
But really its all fake.
I no longer want to do fake.
I no longer want to talk about the good old days and how we have all changed. Take chantelle prime example. she back came after her 30 second rape, nice clean clothes, unscratched, no dna under her fingernails and left . She then returns after months and months of not seeing her.
I've changed she exclaims as I first see her, I don't need men like shaun in my life. Funny enough, who is she with now and treating her like complete trash while he is cheating on her with his ex.... Oh right *looks over chantelle's shoulder* Oh Hi shaun.
So we may get older, facially, maybe we might grow to like different things, but one thing we keep, is how we make our friendships. how appreciate those around us, our main intention for that friend.
Friendships like I have had with a couple people in the past, I was a door mat. I help people do everything for them, even when I have things to be doing for myself. if they said "hey cordie I need your help could you...." I would be like yeah I was in the middle of something but I'll will help. But they would use my name as a scape goat. To know that "good old reliable cordie" would always
be there to help them in their time of need and disappear in her own.
So its not hatred, I just feel the further I stay away the more I can protect myself, for slipping back into old habits.
I would have tried to explain this to jay and Kaz, but its hard to get a word in sometimes and when I do, there is not point in it, so most of debating is not worth the hassle.
Okay I think I am done, Yep I think I am.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Howdy doodie nice people. Stop messing up naruto for me you baka's
First I am going to go on to a yey and hello all spree then after I am going to go into a rant. If you dont watch Naruto at all you may want to skip the second bit... Right *rubs hands together* time to start.
Hey all, I have got so many emails from people who stil keep an eye on this place, telling me that I need to write something new.Lol. AM I THAT ENTERTAINING? XD. Anyway, uni doesn't allow me to have the pleasures of being free to do anything that involves a social life... minus me drinking coke in the pub and watching my uni mates make complete prats out of them selves, which by the way I will get to see again next friday. Lol. I have to take pictures and show you these insane people.
Well I can happily say though, I have finished all my exams, they were hard *cries* Law was great, I felt I had done excellent in that and working in organisations, its just that darn quants and a bit of frigging economics which is worrying me a tad too much. Eveyone came out that exam with one word hanging from our trembling lips.... that word.... that great word was SHIT. Yes in a row 7 people said it. Then after there was this whole thing where everyone kept saying to everyone "I'll see you in retakes" lol.
If you haven't noticed... I have a new blog design, which may I add I did mysel, yeah same all design but is dedicated to sasuke, eventhough I hate the little fuck, he looks sooo cute in that pic, so I had to have him on here lol. Nadia already left me off liners praising the design (she's a sasuke fan girl.... Kakashi should kick some sense into that boys ass seriously Nads)and she litraly sending me kissing down webcam when I signed online,why? just because I used some certain music in the background.... anyone other than Nadia (yes you are not allowed to participate you heard me) who can tell me what music is the background? where it originates from? or whose theme it is? If you can I'll give you big hand claps on webcam lol. Also I look kinda emo in the pic of the week lol... Had to show off my konoha leaf village head band... lol I know sad... but nadia has one too, but she has the sound village one (you villian)lol. This is all toms fault he got me into this damn anime, and I'm watching it like 24/7 lol.
Other than that everything has been good, my exams are finally finished, I am free, only problem with that is that I need a job. I can't deal with another broke summer dude, it would drive me crazy. Although I have been going ebay crazy again ( I really have to stop that)Anyway on to my next point... these damn idiots who keep on spoiling shipuuden for me.
Right listen you stupid little crappy mongolian desert ratty I know what happens in the storyline next my dad works here there and everywhere shits (s'cuse the lang). Its nice that yo know what happens that good for you, but can you not put in a place where people generally dont wanna know. But right now I am up to date (finally) with naruto episodes and shipuuden and still waiting for episodes to load.
I've already found because of those dumbasses that
- sasuke kills orichemeru.
- Sasuke stabs and murders naruto in the end.
- That Gaara dies.
- Kakashi dies too ( nnooooo not my baby)
Is there any point of me watching it now, nope I didn't think so... I might as well move on to the next anime that brings slight interest because the rest of the season is just messed up.
But from season 1 to 9 anyone who hasn't watched it... (yes naruto is very annoying) but other than him the storyline is wicked.
Plus, because of people I keep on seeing Kakashi's face.... his real face without the mask.... very sad. He looks hot but I wanted to be a surprise lol.
Anyway I am done, with my litte geeky chat.In about 10 weeks I turn 20 ARGH....OMG ...I'M OLD.Must cling on to being a teenager for dear life.
Hey all, I have got so many emails from people who stil keep an eye on this place, telling me that I need to write something new.Lol. AM I THAT ENTERTAINING? XD. Anyway, uni doesn't allow me to have the pleasures of being free to do anything that involves a social life... minus me drinking coke in the pub and watching my uni mates make complete prats out of them selves, which by the way I will get to see again next friday. Lol. I have to take pictures and show you these insane people.
Well I can happily say though, I have finished all my exams, they were hard *cries* Law was great, I felt I had done excellent in that and working in organisations, its just that darn quants and a bit of frigging economics which is worrying me a tad too much. Eveyone came out that exam with one word hanging from our trembling lips.... that word.... that great word was SHIT. Yes in a row 7 people said it. Then after there was this whole thing where everyone kept saying to everyone "I'll see you in retakes" lol.
If you haven't noticed... I have a new blog design, which may I add I did mysel, yeah same all design but is dedicated to sasuke, eventhough I hate the little fuck, he looks sooo cute in that pic, so I had to have him on here lol. Nadia already left me off liners praising the design (she's a sasuke fan girl.... Kakashi should kick some sense into that boys ass seriously Nads)and she litraly sending me kissing down webcam when I signed online,why? just because I used some certain music in the background.... anyone other than Nadia (yes you are not allowed to participate you heard me) who can tell me what music is the background? where it originates from? or whose theme it is? If you can I'll give you big hand claps on webcam lol. Also I look kinda emo in the pic of the week lol... Had to show off my konoha leaf village head band... lol I know sad... but nadia has one too, but she has the sound village one (you villian)lol. This is all toms fault he got me into this damn anime, and I'm watching it like 24/7 lol.
Other than that everything has been good, my exams are finally finished, I am free, only problem with that is that I need a job. I can't deal with another broke summer dude, it would drive me crazy. Although I have been going ebay crazy again ( I really have to stop that)Anyway on to my next point... these damn idiots who keep on spoiling shipuuden for me.
Right listen you stupid little crappy mongolian desert ratty I know what happens in the storyline next my dad works here there and everywhere shits (s'cuse the lang). Its nice that yo know what happens that good for you, but can you not put in a place where people generally dont wanna know. But right now I am up to date (finally) with naruto episodes and shipuuden and still waiting for episodes to load.
I've already found because of those dumbasses that
- sasuke kills orichemeru.
- Sasuke stabs and murders naruto in the end.
- That Gaara dies.
- Kakashi dies too ( nnooooo not my baby)
Is there any point of me watching it now, nope I didn't think so... I might as well move on to the next anime that brings slight interest because the rest of the season is just messed up.
But from season 1 to 9 anyone who hasn't watched it... (yes naruto is very annoying) but other than him the storyline is wicked.
Plus, because of people I keep on seeing Kakashi's face.... his real face without the mask.... very sad. He looks hot but I wanted to be a surprise lol.
Anyway I am done, with my litte geeky chat.In about 10 weeks I turn 20 ARGH....OMG ...I'M OLD.Must cling on to being a teenager for dear life.
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