Its not too late, its never too late.

I'm good just tired and have a brusied leg. A really badly bruised leg. I think it was because I climbed over my damn gate that has spikes at the top. Painful. *sad face* anyway...Just finished law coursework, which I will probably get a crappy grade for because it was rushed and had hadly any case citings *shakes head* Hopefully God will look down on me in pity and save me from my bad grade. I now have the two big assignments left to finish in two weeks. Quantative Methods for Business portfolio 2 and Economics Business Plan. After these two are done I can procrastinate until exams in may... Oh yeah.

This song is by Three Days Grace its called Never too late. Its for a certain person. The will know who it is for when they read it. Its a good song and maybe you should take the words into thought. I Hope you get better x


This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late
Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around 'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late
Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again
This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late

Who would've thought that pretending was easy.

Here's me with a deadline over my head and I'm still procrastinating. I have a deadline at 3 tomorrow afternoon and right now. I have 5 questions to attempt and I'm on the third on yey!!! I left the easier ones for last as a little treat but they are still going to take sometime to do. Its now 03:00 in the morning on the dot and I have Its only love Blasting in my ears - by Heather Nova. This song is so beautiful its inspiring me to make a Naru Saku AMV. Should be fun. Only 2 more projects for the year and I'm done yey *w00ts*

I'm worried about something that is happening to one of my friends. I really hope it isn't what I think it is. If it is I may have some serious problems on my hands. I will go into detail when I know exactly what's what!

I'm smiling again today even though I have the deadline of the century hanging over my head. I know however God is helping me smile and be calm and be at peace because everyone is stressing and I'm cool, here watching anime, listening to music. Doing work at the same time. I thank him seriously.

Last week was not a good week ... but I'm smiley again. I however found out one of my uncles had a heartattack esq thing. So I hope he recovers and that he is better *hugs him*

I drew a new pic the other day and I think I am going to finally colour it. There is one of me and another of Kakashi and Kayane I never really finished. I need to draw a Naru Saku and a pic of my friends and family, colour it take it to a shop and print it as a poster.. I just need more practice though and I need to learn some techniques.

Hopefully Fran will be willing to give me some tips.. I hope she is alright. Seeing her again made me realise remember what it was like being her friend. The constant sarcasm, made me feel like I was at home again. Strange that. I wish we never stopped being friends, because maybe I could be a fraction of what she is today instead of the shell I am at the moment. Don't worry guys I will recover. Just give me time.

Anyway I better get off I have work. Now its 03:10, Its all good I might be able to get some sleep if I finish early. Next time Hopefull I will have a review of Ouran Yay!!!! *huggles you all* I love you so much x

Love...I used to think that I know

why we need this

I just assumed that weren't always be fine

Now I don't think that we last the feeling

But we.. let everything build up inside

It's only loveBut love.. should make us strong

It's only love

But love.. has been hurting so long

What a challenge.. honesty

What a struggle to learn to speak

Who would've thought that pretending was easy

It's only loveBut love.. should make us strong

It's only loveBut love.. has been hurting so.. long

And it's all, it's hard on meIt's tearing my heart off me

Love..And it's all, it shouldn't beHoping to learn only

Love..Love..

There's a party here on China beach

Still a pile I don't know

Tell me.. is the ocean a gift or a thief

The ocean let go..It's only loveBut love.. should make us strongIt's only love

But love.. has been hurting so.. long

And it's all, it's hard on me

It's tearing my heart off me

Love..And it's all, it shouldn't be

Hoping to learn only

Love..Only..

Only love.. Love..

Only love.. Love..

Heather Nova - Its Only Love

I need a break... A long break away from life.

So apparently I'm very rude, horrible. That I am not a good christian or I am not trying very hard. Me asking someone to listen to me instead of completely talking over me and coming to their own assumptions is rude of me and I should be listening attentively to everything that is being to said to me. Even though half of that stuff is not me, never has been me. But I am like that.

I just need a break... a break from all of this stuff. These people are putting me off. I dunno what to do anymore. I am not having my own way. I am just confused at what everyone tells me to do. I do something then another person gets angry at me for doing that and then takes not responsibility for it what so ever.

I'm just done. Done with it all for a while. I can't this much longer. I'm fed up of crying, fed of being talked at like a child, tired of not being heard and being that little squeak in the corner... I've been humble, i've taken crap continuously. I don't know how much more of this I can take. I wish I did take my chance when I ran away to totally disappear I mean get on a coach and left to go to some other city.

*sighs* Ah well.

Just got to make myself happy again. Imvu and music here I come. I am going to dance this crap out of me.

See ya x

Reviews, Updates and Happiness.

Hey everyone *waves* I thought I would do an update since I haven't done one in quite a while and an anime Review. I use to review stuff on my old blog all the time, I never really do that here. Ha ell there is always the time start and I guess this is it.

Anyway I am good. Well I think I am. Well as good as confusing life of mine gets. I can say though the upcoming weeks are going to be tough for me. I have alot of deadlines, things to sort out mentally and force my self away from my laptop, Imvu and playing Canis Canem Edit.

The painters and decorators came today and yes this is euphemism that most males and females will know so lets just keep it like that. I was in slight pain. Nothing I couldn't handle but I spent most of the day Imvu-ing and watching what I am about to review later *smiles*

As I have also known in the past, my half terms are never mine to do what I want with them, even if I want to do work. Mum starts offering me out to help people left right and center. Not that I mind I just wish I would have a say in when I have to hand myself out to everybody. Applied for a job in the odeon as well, hopefully something will come through... 'cus Cordie needeteh that damn cash.

I'm slowly but surely putting back on the weight I lost from the 21days fast. *looks down and stomach and tries to wish it away* ah well.. but that's not gonna happen.
Oh crap I just remembered I am suppose to write a letter to the people about my case... Yeah Transport of London is taking me to court. I just hope that this goes in my favour and guess that I'll have to leave it in Gods hands. He will take care of the matter better than I can.

Right Review...

The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya.

This hillarious highschool Anime is packed full of suspense, random perviness, laughs and so much more.This cleverly written anime does at first annoy because the japanese version is shown in anachronic order, which makes the storyline confusing, but for the first time I will say I am happy there are English dubs around (has been put in an order which would seems as chronological- minus episode 7 which is the last episode on the japanese version ).

The main character Haruhi Suzumiya is to say the least a bit wierd. Obviously quite the looker, but does not posses the traits in her personality that would make her fit into the stereotypical nature of a normal teenager. On her first day of school Huruhi is asked to introduce herself and she stands up in class and boldly states to her other classmates "If you are not an alien, timetraveller or esper don't talk to me". People thought she was joking, how wrong they were. Fuelled by rumours from her old class mates from her other school, an intrigued boy named Kyon (top left, who is also the narrator of this story and is a damn comedian) attempts to converse with Huruhi and she slowly looses her horrid attitude towards him begins to open up. She speaks to him of how she wants a life filled with adventure, aliens and abnormal activity, that she has no time for things like love. Unbeknownst to her, she possesses the power to modify reality to how she wants it. Meaning she wants aliens, espers and timetravellers... she's going to get aliens, espers and timetravellers. Kickstarting the action and a romantic love tale between these two characters.

I won't go into too much detail with the other characters, because it would be kind of a spoiler.

Other characters this show blesses us with is Yuki Nagato (botton left), the most monotonic person I have ever heard... in the english dub version and in the japanese subs no matter where you watch this chick she is flat. Her head always in a book and is a girl of little words. She ends up joining the SOS brigade (A school club Mia makes up) forcefully...

Mikuru Asahina (bottom right): A very timid girl, who Haruhi forces to dress up in bunny outfits, maids costumes, nurse gowns and so forth. Also stripping her near naked infront of all the boys, much to her protest of course, but also makes Kyon a very happy guy *laughs*

Last but not least Itsuki Koizumi (hottie). He also joins SOS after being a transfer student in the middle of the year. He gives in to the stupid demands of Haruhi, because inside secretly he knows the consequences of disobeying her. What he has to fight with when she gets mad.

The first episode I watched which eventually made sense at the end. Was their project of making a film. This episode had me in stiches. I mean the greatest acting, from Mikuru and Kyons narrating is excellent (Itsuki leans in to kiss Mikuru and all you hear is this"How is this happening right now!!!! If your mouth gets any closer to her Someone standing off camera is gonna cut in to frame and kick your ass, DAMNIT!!!") ... I can't describe. Although the japanese sub is alot better, because the voices are much more
bearable, because Mikuru sounds like she is on helium on the eng dub.After this episode it will then goes in to normal story telling and I say stick the first episode even if you don't get it.

Although to my disapointment it only last 14 brilliant episodes they are bringing out a different spin off to the anime, they decided to ditch the next season *cries* not continuing the storyline of the original anime, because this show had so much potential and keeps you wanting more after those precious 14 eps!!!! In this new version Kyon better be narrating or there will be hell to payyyyy!!!!!

Anyway that's it... wasn't much of a review ( 'cus I got lazy) but ah well. Anyway that is me for today.

Hide - I just have to hide. Laast Chance!!!

Hide lyrics

Waste away
I'm crawling blind
Hollowed by what I left inside
For you, just you
I'm caught in place
But I ignore what I can't erase

I will run and hide till memories fade away
And I will leave behind a love so strong

Close my eyes theses voices say
Haunting me, I can't escape
For you, just you
Time will always wait
While I throw away what I can't replace

I will run and hide till memories fade away
And I will leave behind a love so strong [x2]

I will run and hide!
And I will leave behind!

I will run and hide till memories fade away
And I will leave behind a love so strong!

-RED Hide

In a way I know this has so much meaning to me right now. Ha how emo am I right now! Anyway just thought I should let people know I am alive.
Uni's going good, lots of coursework.
Just finished a 21 days fast and all I can hear in my ears is "last chance" my crossroad...my crossroad indeed..

Its Fran's bday tomoz so Happy Bday Hun x x x

I'm going off to go and play Canis Canem Edit Byez

"I will run and hide till memories fade away
and I will leave behind a love so strong"