Thursday, July 22, 2004

umm today is the last day

okay let me give you an update on my life okay!!!!! I am now a prefect of year eleven! problem no.1 that can be solved by end of the school year today! no.2 being a prefect I have to sit on the stage and might fall asleep because I'll be soo bored!!!! can be counterd by last day of school! notice how the last day of school solves everything!!!! oh and it's my b-day on saturday! it should be sooo great I just can't wait! I'm finally turning 17 and nearly away from the grips of my father, just one more year to go!!! wohooo! many people are angry that I got the position of a prefect because I didn't even apply for one of the jobs and got given one! I was shocked myself! okay so today I'm dressed hmmm punky  but cool I haven't got the wristband I got from camden on which is good or people would have started looking at me weird! but I went camden a few days ago and it was fun and I also fell in love with this one shop and this shirt that I didn't want to leave without buying it but it was 29.99 and I didn't have that type of cash! oh well bye shirt! ummm sabriye found out she was going to be the form prefect of 8 blue mr boyds form class! now that should be class! he will be eyeing her up! umm I am totally head over heels for these guys and I'll name them and see how my taste changes over the summer

1. Michael Landes


2.Michael Vartan


3. Yannick bisson


4. adam garcia




Friday, July 02, 2004

Drama Groups

Okay well I'm meant to do another drama exam at the end of the year and I'm already pissing myself! last year I with two bitches Jessica and nisha who gave me so much hasle and stuff that I was getting stressed and now I'm getting another one *mutaz* the one who thinks she can sing and practically breaks windows everytime she open her horse of a mouth!!!!! ever since birth I was made to hate her! Today I was put in her group along with emanuella, vicky and zoey! I do't mind vicky, Zoey, and manny because they are my friends but her! so when Emanuella told her I was working in their in her group she started having a hissy fit and it was right in front of me saying: no she's not in my group, she not in my group! and right now I don't want to be! yesterday we went bowling it was fun and we met one of the new girls called Varuna! she was nice, but it's a shame because we are upper sixth and she is lower sixth and those two years don't communicate much!!!!!! I also found out that pamela ]like edward! I like edward too I'm not tooo stressed about it but I know she is much more prettier than me and skinner and he likes that so I'm kind of out done here so....what can I say! I am sooooooo tierd right now!!!!! oh yeah and may I say something summer may not be summery but this rediculous!

Hi

well I'm starting fresh I have just started back ssso and I feel like I should have been waiting to go to orpington! but instead I'm here back in this school, going to saty there for another year! fantastic! hear the sacasm! I guess I'm abit dissapointed and upset that I could be having a new life at orpington college, with at least being in a hand of cute boys! but hey but that's my life. It's very unfair! I wish I could be there, but in a way I have comfort in this place than I would in Orpington. although a sad feeling does come over me. This is jasmines last day at this school, I thought should mention this becuase she keeps on going on about it. Oh and jasmine is leaving to go to america tomoz and she is not packing any clothes, I know , I know kind of weird she going to america without any clothes. and her dad is taking her shopping in New York and shes a luck biatch. It is as everyone is spliting up I mean Sufia is going to lewsiham college and lord know where kaz is right now I haven't spoken to her for long time and Jasmine is going to Kings college. I don't feel alone but I just feel the split more because I'm always mending the split that is between us I guess that's just me caring about others instead of myself. but I love these guys, they are my family and everything I know!!

They helped me escape home and now they are going to not be in my life so often but I'm alright I'm okay.......

Thursday, July 01, 2004

had to act stupid yesterday!oh and HI!

Well Hi to everyone out there and welcome to my blog I guess. I had another one but I had to give it up because I forgot the password!!! stupid huh! yesterday in Drama I had to reactment of Frankie and Johnny and it was quite embarrasing! I had acrt out two characters at the same time it was so wembarrassing I still have it playing in my head! I was sick yesterday I mean all my breakfast and stuff I had at break, came flying out of my mouth! I had to bolt out of drama!And then act a very embarassing part after that. Well mr Jahanns My drama teacher said it was okay so.... I kind of beleive him! yesterday, raina told me some interesting information about some of the girl that I know that went to megans party! turns out that everyone there had kissed everyone else ! and that's not good when you go to an all girls school!!!!! but anyways everyone got off with everyone and two girls Natalie and ashley took it a little bit further in the bathrooms! I'm not one to gossip but everytime I see these girls I just want to burst out their little secret! Like today I saw Natalie and Ashley holding eachother in a quite sexula way and I was think my lord I'm not going to say! I'm going to burst! soon! I already had something like this with an old best friend! she started to get on my nerves but then I found out she was dating another girl from our group and now she's using this as an excuse for me not talking to her when it was her rudeness two weeks earlier that got me stumped! I hated it back than when Me, sufia and Francesca! we always did everything together and then, sufia started to hate Francesca because Francesca kept on copying her.Then I was the piggy in the middle, trying to be friends with both until, Francesca got a new group to hang around with and was not in our form room alot! so I formed a new group of friends and I used hang around them alot and she used to ignore me, but because me being as kind as I am I still talked to her! Then one day because her full group were there she thought she would act as if she was bigger than she was! I went up to them and said hello her and jasmine did not answer! so I said it again! no answer. so I thought fine then.......so becuase the printer in library was not working I went to the computer room to find Jasmine and Francesca in there! so she was rude to me when I asked about what happened so since then I haven't talked to them. I honestly don't know what's happening to this school! and she saying I'm a homophobe! my best friends is gay and I find it quite insulting for someone to call me a homophobe because I care about their personality not their sexual orientation! I feel quite annoyed for all these things that have happend but I hope it will all change ..............one day!