goodbye life I use to know... Hello to a daunting tomorrow.

Another end of an era. I'm sad a bit.confused. Things are gonna be hard.

Life always throws these things at me but I just have to trust in the lord and not be afraid and I guess also to have no fear.

Miss you matty! Wish you were around gah!!

Come Home - onerepublic

[Verse 1]
Hello world
Hope you're listening
Forgive me if I’m young
For speaking out of turn
There’s someone I’ve been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me
They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right
But I’m tired of justifying
So i say you’ll..

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
So come home
Oh

[Verse 2]
I get lost in the beauty
Of everything i see
The world ain’t as half as bad
As they paint it to be
If all the sons
If all the daughters
Stopped to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now..Yeahh
Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud
Until then

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Oh

[Interlude]
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
Everything i can’t be
Is everything you should be
And that’s why i need you here
So hear this now

[Chorus]
Come home
Come home
Cause I’ve been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all i see is you and me
The fight for you is all I’ve ever known
Ever known
So come home
Come home

Song reminds me of matt. I want to transfer closer to him. I have nothing to lose, thats if I haven't already lost my sanity. I have dig in and survive this distance.
I'm so cold. I want him to make me smile like he does and laugh at the stupid things I say and do. Running around like kids. kiss him while people watch because we are an interacial couple XD kick him in his butt, have him pick me up every 5 seconds, lay in bed watching films, tv shows and anime. Fall asleep in his arms, play with his hair and hold his hand while he drives and fall asleep on his lap while he drives too. Him feeding me randomly, licking frosting off his fingers and him saying "damnnnnn woman" hehe doing the dishes while he kisses my neck, the random stuff we did in the tent like play our ds's till we fell asleep. eat junk food nearly every morning. me making him tea and him calling it Tealk. The way he smiles at me every morning and kisses me not even caring about my morning breath XD when he stands behind me, watching me put on my makeup and asks me not to because apparently I'm beautiful without it. They way he looked into my eyes after kissing me and smiled, because words always went when he did. The fact that he is proud to have me as a gf, against all the odds he stayed with me.Kissing him while he filled up his car with gas and him letting me put the cap back on, knowing how clumsy I was would let me do it all the time anyway. The way he talks about the future, telling me the details asking about kids and looking forward to waking up every morning and me being there next to him. watching him look after the kids at the pool, that was one thing I can say was a turn on that shouldn't have been XD talking about conspiracy's and issues of the world and not getting bored. watching him watch me playing guitar hero and seeing that smile on his face.

Writing all of that made me realize how much I miss my baby, I have tears in my eyes while I type because I look back and see how happy I was with him and not really happy here without him. I think he's gonna walk through the door randomly or I'll go to sleep and wake up here and realize it was all just a dream and I am still with him.

I may feel cold right now, I can't wait to be by his side again to feel that all over again.

Blue Valley Songbird

She was born in a place called blue valley
At the foot of the tennessee hills
With the blue birds and blue bells
And blue mountain water
And the sound of the blue whippoorwill
But there was no peace in the valley
Her daddy, a cruel, ruthless man
Used and abused her mind and her body
So her mama said run while you can
So at fifteen she took to the highway
Belongings and guitar in hand
And she buried herself in her music
The one thing she did understand
And she sings like a bird and she writes like a poet
Her voice has that high, lonesome sound
She hurts, and her songs are the best way to show it
So the blue valley songbird keeps traveling around
She hopes someday she will make it
And everyone says that she will
When she comes to town, crowds flock around
To see the girl from the tennessee hills
She writes her letter back home to her mama
In care of the preacher in town
Theyre sacred to her so she reads them at church
And so her daddy cannot track her down

And she sings like a bird and she cries like a baby
Whenever she turns off the lights
Shes a whole lot lonesome and a little bit crazy
From memries and miseries and dreams gone awry

Blue dress, blue shoes, a blue cadillac
A band dressed in blue by her side
Instruments tied to the top and the back
cause the blue valley songbird is singing tonight

One nighters, honky tonks, years flying by
She never made it, but lord knows she tries
Expressing the feelings she holds inside
And the blue valley songbird is singing tonight
Oh the blue valley songbird is singing tonight

And she sings like a bird and she writes like a poet

this song always touches my heart when I hear it... a tiny bit of it reminds me of me