Damn this place is cold. Kiddies it's time to go home!

The best thing, and the first thing to ever happen in St.Saviours history. We are allowed to go home early due to no heating. Thankyou God, 'cus I am freezing, no lie, I can actually see my own breath. The sixth-form block is the worst and yes that happens to be where I have all my lessons.

But less on my day at college and more on what I found out yesterday.

I happen to be a little nosey when it comes tomy brothers. I can't help it. I was going past my oldest brothers wardrboe and a yellow bit of folded paper caught my eye. In fact my brother had not told me the truth about our little trip to jail. On it was a report of the incident. They actually describe me as hostile on this report......liars, I was crying. I didn't know what was going on....Hostile my ass.

He told me he was down for having no license or insurance and told the policeman that it was his friends car and he didn't know anything about the drugs found. On this report it claims and I quote " you instructed Grace France (our lawyer) you did not have an insurance or license. You also instructed Grace France that you had purchased Crack Cocaine for your own personal use"

So the fact is that my Bro was found holding a class A drug and has been granted unconditional bail and must attend Walworth police Station on Thursday 19th of may 2005 at 11am and monday 28th of February 2005 at 10am (which is today) for not havign a license. I can't believe this I know I sometimes feel like I hate him, but what the hell is happening. I can't say anything to him, 'cus he would know what I have been up to. Why didn't he say something about the drugs not being his. He promised me and looked me in the face and said he wouldn't take the fall for his stupid friends and does he do - he does the complete opposite. I can't believe him.

The funniest thing happenend on Friday/Saturday. Charlotte and Kaz decided they would call me at 12:23 in the morning and this was just after I did a very long shift at work to get some extra money, 'cus lord knows my parents are making me pay for everything. Kaz was so pissed she just kept on laughing down the phone eenthough she had nothing to laugh at. Charlotte just kept dropping in the background and calling for Kaz. Kaz decided she would keep saying she loved me as well. It was jokes lol!

Okay so I think I'm done for the day. Might be going to the cinema with the girls later and possibly do a tiny bit of shopping (not that I'm a fan) I just need to. Okay guys I'm done. Oh Dave you were right I listened to that Kelly Clarkson song it is so me!! lol! oh and Ash I miss ya this much *holds out arms as far as they can go* lol! okay now I'm done.

Jasmine's taste in clothing

jasmine's almighty great dressJasmine think this pink dress is nice I said to her that it isn't and she says I don't have taste please someone tell her otherwise.



this is also what she put on msn to me
Well I'm not crazy you are
blue_ice@amuro.net says:
I know what you're trying to do, you want to make me doubt myself
blue_ice@amuro.net says:
well I won't the pink elephant in my head told me I'm sepecial
blue_ice@amuro.net says:
I'm not nuts, it said that the blue baboon had told him so
blue_ice@amuro.net says:
He said that the blue Baboon heared from the yellow hamster that lives
blue_ice@amuro.net says:
in tommy's head that I'm special and that I'm not crazy like the rest of them
blue_ice@amuro.net says:
Oh well Hady ha ha.
blue_ice@amuro.net says:
Goodybye I will be leaving my own head now.


I cracked up!

If I'm nuts why haven't I realised......

If I'm nuts why haven't I realised me losing my own sanity. It's quite stupid to write about. So anyway I realised that everyone says I get these hyper bursts which I Can't control and start doing all weird shit, that I don't even realise I 'm doing. Well I know that I'm doing them but they don't seem strange. eg got bored today and for no reason I grabbed a shaker of salt and started pouring it into evian water and drank it and everyone was laughing, but they say only a real crazy fucker would do that, "but I'm not crazy." I start kicking doors and kartwheeling and stuff like that for the kick of it, I feed off that kind of weird energy, it brands me as weird but I love it.

Yesterday Sufie came round to Kaz's and gave us really late birthday and Christmas presents it was quite funny. I got lip gloss stuff and so perfume and Kaz got some spray and candles so of course Kaz is never a person is satisfied with what she gets, she starts saying for me to give her some of my lip glosses and I hate trying make up on..................... actually I hate trying on makeup full stop. Not that kind of girl. Well maybe the occasional eyeshadow but that's it, it has something with me being a tomboy. So I tried on this brown lipgloss and we started pissing ourselves laughing because I said it made me look like an African who just got off the banana boat with really dry lips." we were there in fits of laughter for hours.

When I left I happened to grab my scarf and leave my phone, which woke Kaz up in the morning because it's my alarm for me to wake up for school. Guess what Kaz does, she calls up my house and tells my dad to wake me up LOL! but I got in trouble because I went to Karli's after "college" LOL! If only he knew the truth. Everytime I look at that countdown clock a sudden feeling of happiness comes over me, knowing that I am getting closer to the day that man is out of my life for three months. I actually told him that this morning he wasn't' too happy. Oh well not like I care, he never cared for me.

In the common room computer room trying to concentrate when the this hifi blasting next to me why all the girls are dancing with each other. Been in this school too long, seeing girls proper grinding with each other LOL! Anyway not feeling good getting really bad abdominal cramps when I'm older my lower organs such as my womb, Fallopian tube and all the other shit, is getting ripped out I don't care no more, it has to get removed. I think I'm done for today. See yaxx

countdown clock

countdown until my dad leaves for St.lucia
click on it wooohhoooooo! great! freedom!

Just found out something

I found out the best news today. My friend Zen (david) is coming back to london for a week. woohooooo. I can't wait to see him, I miss him ever since he went uni up in Manchester. He said we have to go to Fobidden planet together and go down west like we used to do every week end, while I shopped and he checked out guys lol! but David said he may get tickets to go to the wrestlemania revenge tour so wooohoooo!!!!!!!!!

me and David going to the wrestlemania revenge tour cool!!!! can't wait to see him!!!!! um Zoey my friend is obsessing over Zak and waiting for him to come online, right next to me, that she asking Ash stuff about him! lol! gotta go to lunch and this play thing at the National Theatre. Also I have happened to loose ten pieces of my coursework and have to get it done by the end of the week.

Okay so Half-term is over and my Week started off good and came down slowly

So I started school again today so I'm gonna recap my week:

14th of February

Valentines day.
My rant below on Valentines day is just so funny you will see why. I don't mind the day it's just it brings bad luck (well for me anyways)but I survived........Why? Because I got the most sweetest and thoughtful gift ever. So at first we all said we were going to Nando's got into Nando's and there was the longest line ever (well not ever but you know me I like to exaggerate)so we ended up in Pizza Hut. We were sitting at the table when Karli said she needed to go toilet and suddenly Charlotte wanted to go and they were smiling and giggling I knew something was up. So Ash and I was sitting there joking around and he says something along the lines of " I don't normally do valentines day but I used it as an excuse to get you something" now I was already like OMG, and when he brought out a jewelry box and I was OMG-ing everywhere (very unlike me)and I opened the box and started using all girlie words from underneath the sun that I would never use in basic conversation, they just kept on blurting out like verbal diaohreah (LOL!)

It's necklace with a Gibson guitar on it. I love it, I really do. I can't stop staring at it either (great I'm doing the girlie thing again)I hope Ash realises I'm not taking it off LOL! Oh he even got the frets added on for me *girls start screaming in the background* I know LOL!

only three people in the world know this code below:

l12126c3k f6 M13J10 F6A1IGN4L1276N147J10H11

M1367 F6 N14B2 8L12N149J10K11

but yeaht hat was my valentines day in nutshell

15th of February

The greatest fight took place on this day. Forget about your Mohammed Ali and George Foreman FIGHT rumble in Jungle or Big show and JBL. This was the fight right here (you can imagine TIGGER from def Jam vendetta saying this). This was something your grandchildren had to see. Where everyone in London should have had a ticket.

Chantelle vs Martha

It was like Mike Tyson vs Shannon Moore. It was brutal, but in some ways great viewing. There was a lot of hair pulling and a lot of me and Karli saying " stop it chantelle don't do that" "get off Martha" "OMG" It was great....Just great! Gothsnapz was beaten up so badly she was holding her hair in her hand and her face was like half red for the evening. How did it break out. Martha opening that trap of hers and kept on going on. She really didn't think Chantilly was gonna touch her. Well ha chantelle proved her wrong. So I thinks that's all that happened for that day

16th
Nothing really interesting happened on this day except I got grounded, for like the week.

17th
um it was my mummy's birthday today. She cried over our card and flowers. Some mum's are easier to please than others.
I remember being in a bad mood cus my comp crashed which meant no internet......No contact with the outer world. It was heat aching stuff trust me.

18th
Throwing almighty bad tantrums today, because I was going insane not being allowed out the door. I was going crazy. Looking at my dad for endless hours was not fun!

19th
Christopher "I think I want to you back " Fleming decides he would turn up at my work place and make a scene with my friend, my manager and security saying he needed to talk to me when in real fact I am bored of talking to him, can't and won't do it no more.The line of "baby we need to be together you and me just fit" made me laugh even more and turning to Richard "what are you her boyfriend why are you defending her?"
Richard replies " nah I just know a prick when I see one" made me laugh even more.
just after that Clive comes upto me "corinne could you keep your personal affairs at home please" I smiled and went sure.

20th
watch a few program's tried to tape no way out but the video recorder broke down. Saw the promos for wrestlemania even the one where they are taking the piss out of pulp fiction. That was great. I watched a funny film too called Down Periscope (1995) had that guy from seinfield in it and also Rob Schneider from Deuce Bigalow: Male Gigolo. It was fantastic and the song at the end (In the Navy) was so gay, but so funny LOL! I couldn't stop laughing.

Anyway, I think I'm done here. That was my week for all of you in one. If I got something to talk about tomoz I'll probably be posting then,but until then good morning, good afternoon and goodnight. LOL! seeya

Cells are lovely places to be especially if you are 17

Okay so hey everybody it's valentines day wooohoooo! (sarcasm) I hate this day I don't think it should take one day for you to express to anyone how much you love them although the gesture and the thoughts of this day is sweet I just find that, everything seems to go wrong either on this day or a few days before it. (don't ask) but hey I am about to prove to you my theory of what I think about this day is true. Yesterday, I was being driven home from one of my brothers parties in the early morning and we get pulled over. I already knew we were in trouble to the fact that my brother doesn't have a drivers license but then this part I didn't know about the police man asked one of brothers to pop the trunk and there laid bags and bags of drugs I wanted to cry. I was scared 'cus I knew I was gonna get arrested. Let me tell you something I have been arrested before but this one was painful. I mean they put the cuffs on so tight I was losing most of the circulation to my arms. Then shoving (shoving the only word I can think that can describe it) into the back of this cold van and being driven to the police station looking angrily at my brother. (I am still not talking to him)Eventhough they questioned me for 3 hours and knew that I was underage and that I had no clue that those drugs were in the boot. I was once again brutally shoved once again into a cell.

I didn't know what I wanted to do I just kept pacing and crying, I called my mum and she came to pick me up, well bail me out and my other brothers as well. Both of them are for drug charges but this stays on my record until I'm 18 and then it will wiped off. Great I CAN KISS MY JOB IN CIVIL SERVICES GOODBYE. *cries* I am slowly getting over the experience. They didn't even put me in a minors cell, the minors cell I could take in but they put me in a adult offenders cell which was just so scary.

So here I am, in Old Kent road internet cafe and guess who walks through the door the same guy who decided that he would become friendly with my neck LOL! Yup you guessed it Alex!!!!! And now he saying he is leaving in two weeks ..................Yeah I believe you not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

um going Nandos tonight with Kaz, Char and Ash tonight. Checking online if I have enough, and crap I only have 5 quid this aint good LOL! Anyways I thinks that enough from me! Happy Valentine's day to everyone!!!!!!Xx

not a prefect anymore!!!!! wooohoooo

so I went to school and did no work like usual, but come on I'm a person who does no work and comes out with amazing gradesso it's no biggy to me. So I went into the computer room and there lies Claire Reid the most snobbiest, annoying, two faced little sarcastic bitch that had ever walked this earth. She also happens to be our deputy Head girl. So suddenly today this girl who never wanted to talk to me in her life, because of my lets say...................Low class family, decides she wants to have a conversation with me. I knew something was up.....I knew it. So since I ignored her that she wanted to talk to me, finding that I should help my friend to get on msnmessenger than talking to her, she gets her little another annoying shit who thinks she's great...............Ashley to shout out you have been replaced as 11oranges prefect.................yeah,that thing Claire decides to replace me. Why? because my form class have been acting disrespectfully to Miss Hicks. I'm sorry that is not my fault. I didn't ask that woman to be a bitch it just comes naturally.

Yesterday I was round Karli's and mARTHA DECIDED SHE WOULD COME OVER AND STAY THE NIGHT LOL! poor Kaz but yeah she was trying to talk to Matt last night and he was either ignoring her or just trying to talk to Asher which was funny. Oh damn when will that girl stop trying to offer her own prostitue service lol! anyways nothing much has happened today either, wnet to drama, meant to be in media right now but I can't be asked....it's miss Edimaties lesson I don't like self torture lol!!!!!

yeah I aint got nothing much to say except for

Claire reid is a bitch

ah got that out of my system so yeah I'm done!!!!!!!

I couldn't have asked for a better Daughter-in-law

So yesterday I didn't go to college, that was mainly to the fact that I couldn't be bothered, you know me I can be really lazy at times. So I went to Kaz's and we both fell asleep on eachother arms (not like that) but yeah we fell asleep for hours. Until the phone rang and it was Ash, who had to clean the house from top to bottom before eight (before his mum came home) so we had to go and help out. So after having trouble with getting dizzy on the bus and this guy giving me dirty looks so bad that I actually shouted at him "can you not look at me". So we get to Ashers, to find it spotless (we were impressed lol)So we didn't do anything really but sit and watch T.v. So Kaz's and Asher's mum comes home and apologies at me for the things that she said last time and made me understand that none of that stuff was directed at me and thought it would have diluted the effect of the whole situation if she told me there and then so that was quite understandable.

After that most of the stuff after that was mostly a blur all I remember was that either Kaz's mum or Kaz called up Tony (Kaz and Asher's Dad) and he hung up on them. So there is alot of crying going on and stuff and it was really bad.

Most of it me and Ash were alone in his bedroom and not to go in to too much detail (not that I'm alot of detail girl and that it may distub my friend Zen) we kissed and talked and kissed and talked and kissed (I think you're seeing the pattern that is occuring here). The funniest thing that happened was that when we hugging before was that Asher's mum comes in and says the funniest line ever "Karli there are people hugging in here" and I was laughing my head off. Then the line to top it off was " I couldn't have asked for a better Daughter-in-law" I was wailing in laughter after that I couldn't help it.

Just when I thought that embarressment would be over Kaz started doing the whole "I'm your bestfriend thing you must tell me" I kept it quiet and she was just guessing and everything started coming out lol! so do you know what my so called BEST friend did..............SHE TOLD HER MUM!!!!!!!!! I had to kind of hide my face or wish that I had a plastic bag over my head! lol! but yeah it was just a very eventful but strangely calm evening. Even when i got home I didn't get in trouble.

Also the funniest thing is that we haven't said that we like each other to directly TO eac others faces but over the net it's quite funny.

I'm also a bit depressed today also I don't know why but I am, have been since yesterday, but like Sufia says if you don't know what's wrong that means everything is wrong. anyway I've got to go to Kaz's house 'cus Steve isn't taking to see that woman (I can't remember her name) and because I have a photographic memory I remember where it is! so I gotta leave now, or she is gonna kick my ass really hard lol!

My heart is in your hands

Okay, I was late again to college. (come on it's me) I woke up at 8:30 today and rushed around the house. Got to college around 9:35, and what's a day without a prefect being told off with half of year 11 being there, yeay lucky me. (being sarcastic) This school is taking everything out of me...........I can't wait to leave. So today did a few shoots for our media project, me being behind the camera fucked up a whole big part so we have to film it again, but most of the other scenes I filmed were alright so that's okay. I'm listening to Gavin DeGraw's "I don't wanna be" it is a cool song which he sings live. Here, he playing the piano and singing on the clip, if you go to the website then go to multimedia it's a great song and I'm trying to promote it lol! (not that I'm doing a great job at it).

So yesterday, as Asher would know and probably laugh at me for writing this but..... I couldn't let go of him yesterday, I just wanted to stand there hugging him. It's quite funny when I look back on it, and his line of "you know I'm not gonna pull away from you" made me wanna laugh even more. I've also realised that I'm very good at hiding my emotions, as I've been told.

Anyways,I was soooo tired yesterday and it was only tuesday. You see black people get energy from being exsposed to long doses of violence......looks like I have to take another trip down brixton then lol! Oh and I found this today and I know some people will laugh when they see this because I'm constantly treated like a slave by my friends because I'm black.(DONT ASK) and I was thinking of putting this one on the u.h.f.m site Okay so I think I'm done for today...................................yep! see ya

right nothing happened today

okay well today nothing has really happened and I got so bored so I did yet another quiz and here it is

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	mysterious
Your hugs are...	gentle
Your eyes...	light up a day
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	beautiful
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	eternal
Quiz created with MemeGen!

it generates things about you just by your name. So since this is the only thing I have done today I thought I might put it up here. I have got media filming tonight and to ge the shots......perfect and I'm behind camera today. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! but it should be good fun! these are some of the pictures from our thriller renou and Mr mc morrow
renou and mr mc morrow2 this pic is soooo funny