hey all I've just come back from seeing rush hour 3 (Excellent film, Chris-Jackieness great humour like always) I did have a good night, but it felt wrong in a way.
Kaz asked me to come down and go harvester with her and I thought... Okay, I'll come down and spend some time with Kaz and co. Then Jon abruptly controls our plans of free foodness (what people I am black) to go to wetherspoons.
So Kaz asked if we would get fed, he said yes and yada yada yada. So anyway as soon as we get to wetherspoons, I get a text from my mum saying I had to bring my bus pass back and give it to her so she could go out.
So I told Kaz I can't come back down because my mum will have my pass and because of my broke ass no working summer, with much injuries I have no money to just take a bus back down.
She gave me her bus pass and said she would ask jon to buy her a bus pass. So I took the pass to my mums to find out that she didn't really need it. I wanted to murder her because I spent maybe an hour and twenty minutes trying to get myself back down to streatham.
So I leave my pass with my mum and come back down on Kaz's bus pass. So I get to wetherspoons and as you can imagine there is a chantelle looking very depressed, and the very merry twosome Jon and Kaz ( drunk like damn fishes swimming around in white wine) and two birds I have never seen before.
I get introduced to sophie and alice who are really sweet and beautiful girls (shame I'm nothing like that). A slight argument breaks out because kaz wants to go home and change, bcause she smelt of alcohol, but it wouldn't have made much difference because the amount of alcohol she consumed was already on her breath (lol!)
Chan didn't want to go because jon was there. Chantelle and jon are now enemies, although when they first met each other he wanted to jump her damn bones. (this is turning out to be a very long story).
So after much moaning and confusion jon had 4 tickets to go and see rush hour 3 he invited sophie and alice (who he just randomly met that day) and had space for one more person. So kaz and chan didn't want to go and I didn't exactly feel like going with Jon and the two other girls, but then Kaz did tell me that jon would waste a ticket and I felt guilty.
I dont know why this boy can't just go to peckham damn cinema like the rest of us cheap fucks.
So we get in a black cab after jon ran half way down the road for it. I had to run to the other side even though I told him I can't run due to my wound in my back still trying to heal (oh I ripped the skin on it a week ago that was damn paiiiiinful)
So whiz forward a bit, we are in the cab and jon is shouting from the rooftops that he gay, which doesn't surprise me much and talking about how much he earns in a year and suddenly I dont know where it came from but jon started turning on me.
He was saying it like it was a joke, but you know those jokes when you hear the person voicing their opinions about you, but hiding behind the walls of haha I'm just kiddin' ya. well it was like that. Jon said well you're poor, you wont get a good job and then to alice and sophie
that he admires them for being nurses because they are signing up to be poor for the rest of their lives, I dont know the way he was saying it, it made me feel low... I don't know about sophie and alice, but he just kept on going on about how poor I am always gonna be.
Then other comment of after the night out we had a month ago or so, went slept in the same bed (not like that people ewww) and he hugged me, he said something but I will not mention it. Anyway he started talking to alice thinking that I thought somethng was going on between us ( WHICH I NEVER) and he was like I mean why would I want to I mean she fat, Black and poor. once again if it was a joke at least a smile this was total seriousness in his voice.
So we get there and we are waiting for him to get his tons of food he ordered for himself asked me if I wanted anything I said no, then he said get one thing so I said coke. right so I got a coke. so he apparently topped up his gift card and gave it over to pay for the stuff that he bought, apparently it had insufficient funds. Jon gets into this argument with the manager, when they were trying to fix the problem and he just needed to patient, when I told him this I got a very harsh "just shut up corinne" so I just left him and went to talk to sophie. After this I decided I'm just going to try and stay out of his way and not get down about it
Finally got to our seats and the film had already started btw jon sat at the end to your left then sophie, alice then me at the end to your right.
He offered popcorn to sophie and alice and he said hey corinne wants some I was just about put my hand in and he pulls it away and says " well you are fat enough already I dont think you need anymore" and sit back in the chair then when he looked over and saw my face that when he decided that he would give me some, to which I then I rejected it until he started getting popcorn down alice and shoving it in my face, I took some just to shut him up.
Then he embarressed me in cinema about something else, which I will not mention.
I can take those kind of comments, when they are jokes. Even sometimes when they are jokes they hurt, but I just ignore them and brush 'em off. When everyone gangs up on me, even though I know they're joking, it makes me feel wrong to be black and I feel small ( I know what them lot are thinking along the lines of "but it is though") because most of my friends are not black and they go on and on and on about it. Once everyone was doing it, and I had a hard day and I want cheer up and I thought... yeah my friends will cheer me up. I wasn't feeling that great about myself either and then they all started. I acted like nothing was wrong, but its kind of funny how I went to the toilets and cried lol! Stupid me,
Jon however took it to a whole new level, the way he was saying it, it was like he meant every word he said. Then I remembered I still had to ask him for a bus pass to get back home and he had been going on about how 'poor' I am all night.
After punching me in my back and me punching him in the back in return, much harder, showing him that there is one thing about a black person you dont mess with... their strength.
I had to ask or i wouldn't able to get home as it seemed as he had forgot, I did at this point feel like shit so I reminded him and the angry WHAT?!? I got back was like, yey bring on the crappy feeling then he started going into one " NO-ONE TELLS ME THESE THINGS" grumbling underneath his breath, grabs a one day buspass out of his pocket and thrusts it at me and was like "well...bye"
So its decided I am never going out with jon again, well not by myself and not while he is drunk, well least I have a jist of what he really thinks of me. I wouldn't have even been there if Kaz hadn't told me to come back.
I know half of that stuff is true, but its the comments that are true that hurts more than the ones that are false right?
I don't know maybe I'm overreacting but when I was at the bus stop I felt tears coming to my eyes (I'm such a stupid twat sometimes) I just came home after the film I have wanted to see all year, feeling like dirt, I'm a bit better now.
x Updates x
- Uni finally are doing something about my extenuating circumstances form Yeyness. Hopefully by the grace of god this form reaches them by friday,
- I should be fully connected back to the net by october.
- I am actually an admin of a board that has more than ten members.
- Might be changing my blog template, I'm getting fed up of seeing sasuke. Well I haven't been online that much but I know he's there and its annoying (that sounds like such a jasmine thing to say)
- Wound in my back from the op has nearly closed, although it will take maybe a year or so to fully heal.
- I have to stop myself from drawing more fan-art, its starting to clutter my darnn room.The character I have drawn to soon be my DA ID ( dont know why I bother with DA anymore) looks so hot.... of course if its hot it looks nothing like me... although its my character... I should probably draw a black marshmallow woman and put that there instead.
- Still weak after losing 3 pints of blood two days after my operation and being rushed back to hospital. Then further after that losing another 1/2 a pint a few days after that. the doctor said I may feel tired alot, but still they are amazed how I can be as active as I am today.
- I think my tagger is on crack... I think it went to get high with all the other crack head taggers. its showing old messages instead of new ones. So I am just going to delete all my messages and start afresh ... better leave me comments biznatches.
Anyone I have droned on too long with my depressed self (well not depressed just slightly down)
Mina Arigato(everybody thankyou) for putting up with reading this lol.
love ya xx
Quote of the week
Jon: So chantelle I hear you are illiterate
Chantelle: *Looks all offended*
Chantelle: .... what's illiterate?
Jon: The answer is yes then
Quote from Rush Hour 3 - you have to see this part to find it funny and it also sounds like something I would say
*Chris tucker is dangling from the effile tower*
Chris tucker: No...woahhh.... black people don't fly, they just dont dont fly *shouts* black people don't flyyyyyy.
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