El beso del final

So I was mind numbingly bored today (first time in a while) and basically decided to have a movie night. So it was just me, my laptop, some food and youtube XD

So I decided a classic.. dirty Dancing and then decided to watch dirty dancing 2. I have seen it before, but that was while I was out of my head drunk and not really playing attention lol..

Sooooo its not as good as the original, but it was good in its own way. The end however sucked so hard I wanted to beat the director and script writer myself XD
One song that did stick out to me from the whole movie was Christina Aguilera's El beso del final. Damn she made that song so passionate, such a smexual song! The translated words(which I usually call the buothering of ones language) is sad but the song is just so pretty. Want proof? Watch, listen and learn.



Other updates...

My christmas is rather active this year. Recently, well since my mum and dad's divorce I have just been lounging around the house and maybe delivering one or two cakes for my mum... not really doing anything to be honest. This year however I have been invited to 3 parties and a dinner. Then on New Years I may be on the Thames on a boat party *w00t* talking about bringing it in with style.
However last year bringing it in with people at church was pretty fun too I guess.

btw another thing... I dunno what all this hype about twilight is about! its an okayish movie, nothing too great a few pretty runs up a tree, a bit of glittery skin, human vampire *bored voice* woo. You are much better off watching buffy the vampire slayer the series XD

Things to watch: Dance with Me - all I gotta say is damn!!
Vampire knight - for all anime lovers and for those who question anime, if its worth watching. I dare you to give this anime a try, because I tell ya now, you wont be able to stop XD

Anyway I'm off to make my board christmas banner and maybe do a photomanip while I'm at it. Feel free to check out my artwork so far *>>>>> Cordie's Artwork of magical goodness<<<<<*

For all the things you do.. may God have mercy on you *smiles*

To one person (oh what the hell... to Jasmine Palmer),

You are humorous beyond all belief. When I hung out with you, you were never this funny! But now I don't, you are nothing but a mere joke to me.

I'm so glad you make me laugh.

Much love, hugs, Blessings and kisses

Corinne x

K... jackage.

So we have all heard of high school musical... yes that film that I could beat people for watching.

*sniggers* Well I present to its christian rip off Sunday school music... Yes that's right kids sunday school musical. LMAO!



Couldn't they have thought up a different title, or changed the way it was projected in the trailer. Its just too funny.

This almost reminds me of the film harry putar XD

before I Slice you like government cheese lol

Just gotta say that I would definately Tap that ten times over XD




























Just finished watching Bring it on: in it to win it. Its an okay film, its one of those don't have to use your brain to understand it, it was... entertaining though.

Today I feel... Happy
Reading... Under a Blood red sky by Kate Furnivall. Awesome book..and I'm only a tiny bit through it.
Listening to... All the same by Sick puppies on my new gorgeous Creative Zen Xfi.The song on that thing is amazing and its so tiny.
Secondary feeling... Love, Dammmit!I despise this feeling...go away I say XD
Plan for tomorrow... Clean, shop, walk,get 'round to watching the end of twilight Nothing fun really its sunday!
one thing to achieve during the week... To attend a full week of uni! since the start of the year it hasn't been done. So I need to do it XD For a girl who coated through last year and got best grades in the class for law and quants.. jeez imagine what would happen if I actually tried XD.

I have dishes to clean and close my eyes and not think of tuesday...

x x x

The Mcpherson Magic

Just have to praise Dave for his live performances. They are amazing. Faster the chase Acoustic version had me feeling that song again. Damn I want those chords xD Just listen and watch the man make magic.

Faster The Chase Acoustic



Turbulence



and this one is for Kaz to remember those days when she fancied the pants off of dave.



More reasons why Dave is awesome...XD he invents ways to drink and play at the same time!



K I'm done.

We break hearts, Not Hymens

"The Thing About Love"

Love
Love will come find you
Just to remind you
Of who you are

Oh love
It will forsake you
Threaten to break you
Take what you got

Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
Sure it could hurt you baby
But give it a little try
See that's the thing about love

Friends
Sometimes will blind you
Sneak up behind you
You cant give enough

Then life
It will embrace you
Totally amaze you
So you don't give up

Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
Sure it could hurt you baby

But give it a little try
See that's the thing about love

Don't tell me that I'm not the only that's going through it all
Oh sometimes I feel like I'm the only that's going through it all
But its time
Oh its time
For me to shine
Hey
Its my time
Oh its time
For me to shine

Its my time
Said its my time
For me to shine
Its my time
Its bout time
For me to shine

Everybody laughs
Everybody cries
Sure it could hurt u baby
But give it a little try
That's the thing about love
That's the thing about love
That's the thing about
That's the thing about love

Alicia Keys - The thing about love

Listening to country songs of my past

Strange! today I found my self online getting songs from my parents past and one of these songs means something to me too. When I listened to them somehow I was comforted... not that I needed comfort, but I just felt at ease it was a nice feeling.


There's a time in the morning when I feel a cold chill
And I try and forget what I know.
It amazes me Darling, how your words haunt me still
Though they're spoken so long ago.


'Cause Nothing Can Hurt You
Nothing Can Hurt You
No one can hurt you
Like someone you love.


Well I finally got over the words that you said
That were spoken in anger to me
Well the words lose their power, but they're never quite dead.
You'll forget them, but you can't forget me.


'Cause Nothing Can Hurt You
Nothing Can Hurt You
No one can hurt you
Like someone you love.


Why do we do it? What can we gain
By hurting each other so bad?
Every time we go through it, it turns out the same
Left over from a love that don't last

There's a time in the morning when I roll back to sleep
'Cause I don't want to remember our past
It amazes me, Darling, how the heartaches we keep
Left over from a love that don't last


'Cause Nothing Can Hurt You
Nothing Can Hurt You
No one can hurt you
Like someone you love.


Nothing Can Hurt You
Nothing Can Hurt You
No one can hurt you
Like someone, someone you love.

Ricky Skaggs - Nothing can hurt you

If I could only win your love
I'd make the most of everything
I'd proudly wear your wedding ring
My heart would never stray when you're away

If I could only win your love
I'd give my all to make it live
You'll never know how much I give
If I could only win your love

Oh how can I ever say
How I crave your love when your gone away
Oh how can I ever show
How I burn inside when you hold me tight

If I could only win your love
I'd give my all to make it live
You'll never know how much I give
If I could only win your love

Oh how can I ever say
How I crave your love when your gone away
Oh how can I ever show
How I burn inside when you hold me tight

If I could only win your love
I'd give my all to make it live
You'll never know how much I give
If I could only win your love


Emmylou Harris - If I could only win your love



My parents use to dance to 'if I could only win your love' by emmylou harris all the time and I danced with someone to this song too. In a way I miss seeing them dancing together... even though I know most of the happy times I remember in my family were fake, when they use to dance somehow I use to see that they cared about each other. Everyone always use to stop and stare at them dancing because they looked so cute dancing and because they could dance to country.. hehe...just thought I would take everyone down a trip of my memory lane

Brighter Skies Are Coming...

Hey don't cry, the night is almost through
And I'll be here to hold and comfort you
Sometimes you'll look out on dark and stormy skies
But darling remember the sun will always rise
And bring the light, and bring the light

Life will take you through many endless nights
And you may struggle with pain and loss sometimes
But as long as you are humble
And you stay true inside
Come what may the sun will always rise
And bring the light, and bring the light

Mountains will make it harder
Dark clouds will make you doubt
But you'll get through
And when I can't be with you
This ray of hope I give to you

So hey don't cry, the night is almost through
And I'll be here to hold and comfort you
Though sometimes you'll look out on dark and stormy skies
darling remember, the sun will always rise
And bring the light, and bring the light

- Heather - The Sun Will Always Rise

hehe funny screen shot

Screen shot

Leo 'aka' Danny and Emmy 'aka' Emily did this after I asked Ems to make this sign... hehehe and I had to take a screen shot of it. it was fun.

Mood: Slightly down
Looking foward to today: Eating
Hates: *shakes fist* today... a lot.
Likes: The thought of sitting down and writing something meaningful (Haven't done that in a while.
eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Planned for today: Shopping, eating, Imvu (if I can), writing, Finishing off a product and some writing.
Long time no see: Chicken lmao
Thing you wished you owned today: Intel's new technological development running certain electrics without cables. Wireless electricity. *w00ts* do you know how much easier using the hoover would be and the wires at the back of our tv would be non existent... ah the joy.
Wish for tomorrow: To hide hahaha and maybe produce some good photomanips... oh and to finish my chain. is that it? oh for a sunny day because the weather outside is crap.

No more DOA *SNIFFS*

Statement

I, Tomonobu Itagaki, hereby announce that on the 14th of May 2008 I filed a complaint in the Tokyo District Court against Tecmo Co., Ltd. for unpaid completion bonuses, and against the President of Tecmo, Yoshimi Yasuda, for such unlawful acts as unreasonable and disingenuous statements made towards me, claiming damages in total of 148 million yen. I also announce that this complaint was delivered to the defendants on May 22nd of the same year.

In addition, I hereby announce that I have today submitted a letter of resignation to Tecmo Co., Ltd. stating that I will resign as of the 1st of July, 2008.

Before the start of development on DEAD OR ALIVE 4, Tecmo Co., Ltd. had agreed to pay a completion bonus to me for this Xbox 360 title, which I produced. However, when the time came for the actual payment, Tecmo Co., Ltd. went against its previous agreement and refused payment. President Yoshimi Yasuda chose not only to violate this agreement, but also turned defiant, telling me “if you are dissatisfied with the decision not to pay the bonuses, either quit the company or sue it.” In addition, he made demeaning remarks about me to my subordinates and colleagues, causing me significant emotional distress and worsening my personal relationships and work environment. Thus, I have no choice but to resign from Tecmo Co., Ltd.

The conduct of Tecmo Co., Ltd. and its president Yoshimi Yasuda towards me has been unbefitting of a publicly-listed company.

I have filed this lawsuit with a strong intent to question the social responsibility of Tecmo Co., Ltd. and its President Yoshimi Yasuda, as well as condemning them for their unjust acts. Today, in addition to announcing the reasons for this lawsuit, I make clear my reasons for resigning.

To All Game Fans

I truly feel sorry to all the fans of the games I have made. NINJA GAIDEN 2, which will launch on the 3rd of June will be the last NINJA GAIDEN I will create. I will also never be able to make DEAD OR ALIVE 5. I regret the circumstances that have forced me to leave Tecmo, where I had worked for so many years, and I regret the disappointment this will cause my fans.

However, I can no longer continue to work with President Yoshimi Yasuda, a man who chooses not to honor promises even when he is able to do so.

I truly hope that nothing like this happens again in the future.

Tecmo Co., Ltd. Creative Officer

Leader, Team NINJA

Tomonobu Itagaki



*GETS DOWN ON HER KNEES AND AS THE CAMERA PANS OUT STARTS SCREAMING* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
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OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

SCREW YOU TECMO

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Okay I'm done now.

Filthy Dirty Disgusting Brutal Bottom-Feeding Trash Bag HOOOOOEE! / I'm cancelling this subscription because you have to many issues.

LOL the title came straight from Chris Jericho. Sorry I was just reliving the good days on youtube today.

Today I'm angry, annoyed... about everything its a strange feeling. I have been snapping at anyone and everyone. I'm tired my head hurts due to the bright lights in the office. I feel uncomfortable in general.

dunno what it is to be honest.

I'm on the bad side of poor too lol.. not that that matters.I'm antisocial... hmmm something I never knew I could be, but of recent I have been embracing this lifestyle and I find it fits me more.

Being by myself, spending time with me, less interaction with people. hmm however it has made me unapproachable. Then again me being unapproachable is yet again not a bad thing... more time in my own company.

Hmm.. maybe non existant, maybe I wish merely not to exist anymore. Wow that sounded rather emo *looks up at her fringe* you are doing this to me aren't you.

I have a new project I plan to pursue, I dunno if its going to work out. Not going to mention it however until I know for definate. Its sounds like one of those crazy, farfetched ideas that is spurned in the far reaches of my brain. However, it sounds do able and something I may enjoy doing.

Currently out of my sudden boredom in this wonderful brightly coloured office (being sarcastic.. the walls are grey and some of the attitudes from people here could induce nightmares) I'm watching inuyasha ( I love this anime) Well not as much as vampire knight, bleach, Ghost in the shell,naru or escaflowne, but its getting there.

They never quite finished the storyline in the anime, so you then afterwards have to go on to a manga site and read endless manga, which I do sometimes. (nearly every friday... naruto and bleach new manga chapters translations come out) but there is alot of damn manga *jaw drops* this might take me awhile... so back to the series.

Um the thing that I cannot seem to shift is that the voice of Miroku is voiced as another one of my fav anime characters Van Fanel from escaflowne. So when I look at the screen and see it miroku there something in my mind keeps saying that is Van's voice... don't look at me like that, my brain works in magical ways XD
and his love interest is Sango who is also voice by non other than the same person who does the voice for hitomi *LAUGHS* My brain hurts from all this confusion because it doesn't end there

Koga = same voice actor who played duo in Gundam wing and wolverine in xmen
Naraku = Same person who voiced Folken from Escaflowne
Sesshomaru = Same person who voiced Trieze in Gundam wing
Hiatchi = Same guy who voiced the mole in Escaflowne
Renkotsu = Same person who voiced Allen in Escaflowne

and I'm pretty sure in one of the episodes I heard the voice of relena in there somewhere.

are you seeing why my brain hurts. Its like all the animes I grew up on combined in to one show and their voices sounding exactly the same.

Hmm what have I got planned for this week:

Nothing , but this stuff..catching up on sleep and exam which I already know I aint ready for. My coursework was good I think... I hope... dream ... *sighs* oh well.

I think I may go off now and start my sketches of pimp my pavement, pimp my wheelchair/Zimmerframe and Michael jackso-- I mean orochimaru likes little boys XD


Pretty words roll off of your tongue
Come out of your mouth heard by everyone
So convincing I believed it for so long
Still I can't figure out why
... everything you ever said would ever make this right or guilty
Now you say you wonder why you're my best ex-friend...

Alesana - Best Ex-Friend

The Final Fight I'll Win, But I Will Go On Until The End.

So clever,
Whatever,
I'm done with these endeavors.
Alone I walk the winding way.
(Here I stay)
It's over,
No longer,
I feel it growing stronger.
I'll live to die another day,
Until I fade away.

[Chorus:]
Why give up, why give in?
It's not enough, it never is.
So I will go on until the end.
We've become desolate.
It's not enough, it never is.
But I will go on until the end.

Surround me,
It's easy
To fall apart completely.
I feel you creeping up again.
(In my head)
It's over,
No longer,
I feel it growing colder.
I knew this day would come to end,
So let this life begin.

[Chorus]

I've lost my way.
I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end.

Living is hard enough
Without you fucking up.

[Chorus]

I've lost my way.
I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end.

U-uh, u-uh

The final fight I'll win,
The final fight I'll win,
The final fight I'll win,
But I will go on until the end.


I love the end of this song. It means a lot to me and its comforting. I haven't written in here in ages. I miss doing so. documenting my life somewhere. well not to my best ability because sometimes I manage to offend people on here even though I don't mean to. I don't speak my mind much so on here I usually let everyone see a little tiny glimmer into what's going on in my head.

I'm going to keep on smiling I have decided. No matter what I hear, no matter what is going on, I will succeed, I will fight and I will win. So I can be a bit shy and stammery but I'm fed up of hiding away in the shadows of my past, where the dust and the staleness lies. Minds never letting go feeling they must get everything. Well take it. Take it all.

I will still be :D

Like my mum says the lord will fight your battles for you, just believe and have faith in him *smiles* so true, so very true.

Today I hung out with frannycracklepop.. *smiles* in other words franny. It was fun we got like really hyper in the park and talked and it just felt good. I needed that, to sit and talk to someone who listened and I did the same in return. I came home feeling so darn happy. She took loads of pics of us acting crazy.

We are thinking of meeting up and doing certain devious things and taking a walk around few museums and randomly go for walkies.I however will need money to take part in these certain activities, but ahwell.. I always find a way.

Fed up of the drama and the break today that I had from it, was good. I am back with a positive outlook.

so revisiony fun this week, apply for grants, watching Inuyasha (yeah I never watched the series seriously before) waiting for more vampire knight (come ooooonnn october)bleachy and naru tomoz yay!

Things to look forward to.

SECOND YEAR OF UNI (*w00ts* finnnnnaalllly)
ANIME CON IN IRELAND (friends online meet up..Hoppppefully)
3 DOORS DOWN GIG (omg I can't wait, may go alone though because I haven't got a lot of my friends are 3dd lovers *cries*)
EPIC START OF SCHOOL YEAR PARTIES
GETTING A JOB (wherever it may be)
LAW MODULES FOR NEXT YEAR (I own in law. I got the highest grade out of our year for law this year. My coursework was an average grade it was my exam that made it take off. I can't wait to get this years modules... oh work experiance)
GOING TO BE ON TV... CHANNEL 4 TRANSMISSION SHOW...(go me)
TO BEING THE BEST DAMN THING YOU EVER HAD -- (to one person specifically.. nah kidding lol)

Things that are gonna suck

ASHLEY LEAVING UNI (I haven't even started but I am gonna miss his blackinese self)
YEAR 2 WORKLOAD
THE RECESSION WE ARE HEADING FOR
WINTER (summer kicks winter ass period)

You sent me a song.

You said you heard this song on tv and thought about me XD. I know you don't listen to this kind of music, so that must be true lol.. Just had to say. Strangely enough I know how you feel.. So I'll put the lyrics to the song up, to return the lyrics ^^

Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air?


If I should die before I wake
It's cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air, oh

I’m here alone, didn’t wanna leave
My heart won’t move, it’s incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand


But how
Do you expect me, to live alone with just me?
‘Cause my world revolves around you
It’s so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air?
Can’t live, can’t breathe with no air
That’s how I feel whenever you ain’t there
There’s no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon be without me?
If you ain’t here, I just can’t breathe
There’s no air, no air
No air air, No air air
No air air, No air air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew,
Right off the ground to flow to you
There’s no gravity to hold me down, for real

But somehow I’m still alive inside
You took my breath but I survived
I don’t know how but I don’t even care

So how do you expect me, to live alone with just me?
‘Cause my world revolves around you
It’s so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air?
Can’t live, can’t breathe with no air
That’s how I feel whenever you ain’t there
There’s no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon be without me?
If you ain’t here I just can’t breathe
There’s no air, no air
No air air, No air air
No air air, No air air

No more

No air

Baby

There's no air, no air

Hey, oOoOo

Oooooooooooooh

Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air?
Can’t live, can’t breathe with no air
That’s how I feel whenever you ain’t there
There’s no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon be without me?
If you ain’t here I just can’t breathe
There’s no air, no air

(Do you expect me, to live alone with just me
Cause my world revolves around you, It's so hard for me to breathe)

Tell me how I'm supposed to breath with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
That's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep

Tell me how you gonna be without me?

If you ain’t here I just can’t breathe

There’s no air, no air
No air air, No air air
No air air,

No air

Jordin Sparks ft Chris Brown - No Air

Michael Vartan Fangirl moment

Seriously this man is amazing

Give me more time Mr Deadline.

Okay so today is not a good day...
Well nothing has happened to make it not a good day its just random other things..
Okay I have an assignment due on the 10th. Everyone must be saying oh you have lots of time... lots and lots of time you got a good solid three days there. I wish my my mum thinks the concept of me trying to do work is selfish of me that I do not drop everything and cater to her needs. Tomorrow I have church which is going to take up half of my day anyway and then I have to go to daniel and chantelles wedding reception which is like *rolls eyes* they have been married for months now get over it.

Anyway even though I don't have any pretty clothes I am being forced to attend this lovely yet daunting gatherings of persons when I have not one but two dealines hang over my head like some certain death sentence.

I know its my fault. I shouldn't have been procrastinating. But Ouran high school host club, was drawing me to finish watching its series and naruto to read manga chapters and watch episodes.. I even managed to watch a bunch of films in this time. One being step up 2. Quite good that was.

Imvu is the worst too. The place never use to be so damn addicitive honestly I am like a black child on crack. I need a daily fix. Its doesn't help either when I see on my homepage that someone has left me a message or that the status is online.

Facebook is also very very very very very evil at these times because I get sucked in to reading mail. Group posts and friggin trivia... damn you to hell trivia, I love you, but you destroy me.

Even right now I am finding another way to procrastinate, byt writing this darn entry. Should I rush everything this sunday and try and at least hand in something as petty as it may be. Or miss out church tomox, which I will never hear the end of or let my mother take endless hours perming my hair then go tomoz come back home around 9 fall asleep and then wake up in a panic on sunday, knowing that every hour that ticks away is leading to my bad grade.

Crappy...

And I want to watch Kanon and bleach *slaps self* shut it.

Okay, I am going to have to sacrifice something to get something else done. I will not mess this up... I will give in work on monday and this work will rock
I will give in more work on the wednesday too and that will rock harder.. hear me lol.

I will get good grade. I will not fail. I will concentrate because I have big G on my side. So Big G help me...

Love you all

cordie x

23:02

and I got my hair done... still haven't done any work... cept I have been practicing my hip rolling although I still need to be a little bit more skinner to actually pull it off. Yay weight loss.

I also found clips from one of my old favourite shows. Called the real mccoy... check these out lol.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lWJeZ8bZsUE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vnoyqykrz_o Dr who dubbed for the west indies.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l6tAjmh1dV0 The second bit to this sketch always cracked me up

Its not too late, its never too late.

I'm good just tired and have a brusied leg. A really badly bruised leg. I think it was because I climbed over my damn gate that has spikes at the top. Painful. *sad face* anyway...Just finished law coursework, which I will probably get a crappy grade for because it was rushed and had hadly any case citings *shakes head* Hopefully God will look down on me in pity and save me from my bad grade. I now have the two big assignments left to finish in two weeks. Quantative Methods for Business portfolio 2 and Economics Business Plan. After these two are done I can procrastinate until exams in may... Oh yeah.

This song is by Three Days Grace its called Never too late. Its for a certain person. The will know who it is for when they read it. Its a good song and maybe you should take the words into thought. I Hope you get better x


This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late
Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around 'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And I have left alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late
Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again
This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong

Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
Maybe we'll turn it around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late (It's never too late)
It's not too late
It's never too late

Who would've thought that pretending was easy.

Here's me with a deadline over my head and I'm still procrastinating. I have a deadline at 3 tomorrow afternoon and right now. I have 5 questions to attempt and I'm on the third on yey!!! I left the easier ones for last as a little treat but they are still going to take sometime to do. Its now 03:00 in the morning on the dot and I have Its only love Blasting in my ears - by Heather Nova. This song is so beautiful its inspiring me to make a Naru Saku AMV. Should be fun. Only 2 more projects for the year and I'm done yey *w00ts*

I'm worried about something that is happening to one of my friends. I really hope it isn't what I think it is. If it is I may have some serious problems on my hands. I will go into detail when I know exactly what's what!

I'm smiling again today even though I have the deadline of the century hanging over my head. I know however God is helping me smile and be calm and be at peace because everyone is stressing and I'm cool, here watching anime, listening to music. Doing work at the same time. I thank him seriously.

Last week was not a good week ... but I'm smiley again. I however found out one of my uncles had a heartattack esq thing. So I hope he recovers and that he is better *hugs him*

I drew a new pic the other day and I think I am going to finally colour it. There is one of me and another of Kakashi and Kayane I never really finished. I need to draw a Naru Saku and a pic of my friends and family, colour it take it to a shop and print it as a poster.. I just need more practice though and I need to learn some techniques.

Hopefully Fran will be willing to give me some tips.. I hope she is alright. Seeing her again made me realise remember what it was like being her friend. The constant sarcasm, made me feel like I was at home again. Strange that. I wish we never stopped being friends, because maybe I could be a fraction of what she is today instead of the shell I am at the moment. Don't worry guys I will recover. Just give me time.

Anyway I better get off I have work. Now its 03:10, Its all good I might be able to get some sleep if I finish early. Next time Hopefull I will have a review of Ouran Yay!!!! *huggles you all* I love you so much x

Love...I used to think that I know

why we need this

I just assumed that weren't always be fine

Now I don't think that we last the feeling

But we.. let everything build up inside

It's only loveBut love.. should make us strong

It's only love

But love.. has been hurting so long

What a challenge.. honesty

What a struggle to learn to speak

Who would've thought that pretending was easy

It's only loveBut love.. should make us strong

It's only loveBut love.. has been hurting so.. long

And it's all, it's hard on meIt's tearing my heart off me

Love..And it's all, it shouldn't beHoping to learn only

Love..Love..

There's a party here on China beach

Still a pile I don't know

Tell me.. is the ocean a gift or a thief

The ocean let go..It's only loveBut love.. should make us strongIt's only love

But love.. has been hurting so.. long

And it's all, it's hard on me

It's tearing my heart off me

Love..And it's all, it shouldn't be

Hoping to learn only

Love..Only..

Only love.. Love..

Only love.. Love..

Heather Nova - Its Only Love

I need a break... A long break away from life.

So apparently I'm very rude, horrible. That I am not a good christian or I am not trying very hard. Me asking someone to listen to me instead of completely talking over me and coming to their own assumptions is rude of me and I should be listening attentively to everything that is being to said to me. Even though half of that stuff is not me, never has been me. But I am like that.

I just need a break... a break from all of this stuff. These people are putting me off. I dunno what to do anymore. I am not having my own way. I am just confused at what everyone tells me to do. I do something then another person gets angry at me for doing that and then takes not responsibility for it what so ever.

I'm just done. Done with it all for a while. I can't this much longer. I'm fed up of crying, fed of being talked at like a child, tired of not being heard and being that little squeak in the corner... I've been humble, i've taken crap continuously. I don't know how much more of this I can take. I wish I did take my chance when I ran away to totally disappear I mean get on a coach and left to go to some other city.

*sighs* Ah well.

Just got to make myself happy again. Imvu and music here I come. I am going to dance this crap out of me.

See ya x

Reviews, Updates and Happiness.

Hey everyone *waves* I thought I would do an update since I haven't done one in quite a while and an anime Review. I use to review stuff on my old blog all the time, I never really do that here. Ha ell there is always the time start and I guess this is it.

Anyway I am good. Well I think I am. Well as good as confusing life of mine gets. I can say though the upcoming weeks are going to be tough for me. I have alot of deadlines, things to sort out mentally and force my self away from my laptop, Imvu and playing Canis Canem Edit.

The painters and decorators came today and yes this is euphemism that most males and females will know so lets just keep it like that. I was in slight pain. Nothing I couldn't handle but I spent most of the day Imvu-ing and watching what I am about to review later *smiles*

As I have also known in the past, my half terms are never mine to do what I want with them, even if I want to do work. Mum starts offering me out to help people left right and center. Not that I mind I just wish I would have a say in when I have to hand myself out to everybody. Applied for a job in the odeon as well, hopefully something will come through... 'cus Cordie needeteh that damn cash.

I'm slowly but surely putting back on the weight I lost from the 21days fast. *looks down and stomach and tries to wish it away* ah well.. but that's not gonna happen.
Oh crap I just remembered I am suppose to write a letter to the people about my case... Yeah Transport of London is taking me to court. I just hope that this goes in my favour and guess that I'll have to leave it in Gods hands. He will take care of the matter better than I can.

Right Review...

The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya.

This hillarious highschool Anime is packed full of suspense, random perviness, laughs and so much more.This cleverly written anime does at first annoy because the japanese version is shown in anachronic order, which makes the storyline confusing, but for the first time I will say I am happy there are English dubs around (has been put in an order which would seems as chronological- minus episode 7 which is the last episode on the japanese version ).

The main character Haruhi Suzumiya is to say the least a bit wierd. Obviously quite the looker, but does not posses the traits in her personality that would make her fit into the stereotypical nature of a normal teenager. On her first day of school Huruhi is asked to introduce herself and she stands up in class and boldly states to her other classmates "If you are not an alien, timetraveller or esper don't talk to me". People thought she was joking, how wrong they were. Fuelled by rumours from her old class mates from her other school, an intrigued boy named Kyon (top left, who is also the narrator of this story and is a damn comedian) attempts to converse with Huruhi and she slowly looses her horrid attitude towards him begins to open up. She speaks to him of how she wants a life filled with adventure, aliens and abnormal activity, that she has no time for things like love. Unbeknownst to her, she possesses the power to modify reality to how she wants it. Meaning she wants aliens, espers and timetravellers... she's going to get aliens, espers and timetravellers. Kickstarting the action and a romantic love tale between these two characters.

I won't go into too much detail with the other characters, because it would be kind of a spoiler.

Other characters this show blesses us with is Yuki Nagato (botton left), the most monotonic person I have ever heard... in the english dub version and in the japanese subs no matter where you watch this chick she is flat. Her head always in a book and is a girl of little words. She ends up joining the SOS brigade (A school club Mia makes up) forcefully...

Mikuru Asahina (bottom right): A very timid girl, who Haruhi forces to dress up in bunny outfits, maids costumes, nurse gowns and so forth. Also stripping her near naked infront of all the boys, much to her protest of course, but also makes Kyon a very happy guy *laughs*

Last but not least Itsuki Koizumi (hottie). He also joins SOS after being a transfer student in the middle of the year. He gives in to the stupid demands of Haruhi, because inside secretly he knows the consequences of disobeying her. What he has to fight with when she gets mad.

The first episode I watched which eventually made sense at the end. Was their project of making a film. This episode had me in stiches. I mean the greatest acting, from Mikuru and Kyons narrating is excellent (Itsuki leans in to kiss Mikuru and all you hear is this"How is this happening right now!!!! If your mouth gets any closer to her Someone standing off camera is gonna cut in to frame and kick your ass, DAMNIT!!!") ... I can't describe. Although the japanese sub is alot better, because the voices are much more
bearable, because Mikuru sounds like she is on helium on the eng dub.After this episode it will then goes in to normal story telling and I say stick the first episode even if you don't get it.

Although to my disapointment it only last 14 brilliant episodes they are bringing out a different spin off to the anime, they decided to ditch the next season *cries* not continuing the storyline of the original anime, because this show had so much potential and keeps you wanting more after those precious 14 eps!!!! In this new version Kyon better be narrating or there will be hell to payyyyy!!!!!

Anyway that's it... wasn't much of a review ( 'cus I got lazy) but ah well. Anyway that is me for today.

Hide - I just have to hide. Laast Chance!!!

Hide lyrics

Waste away
I'm crawling blind
Hollowed by what I left inside
For you, just you
I'm caught in place
But I ignore what I can't erase

I will run and hide till memories fade away
And I will leave behind a love so strong

Close my eyes theses voices say
Haunting me, I can't escape
For you, just you
Time will always wait
While I throw away what I can't replace

I will run and hide till memories fade away
And I will leave behind a love so strong [x2]

I will run and hide!
And I will leave behind!

I will run and hide till memories fade away
And I will leave behind a love so strong!

-RED Hide

In a way I know this has so much meaning to me right now. Ha how emo am I right now! Anyway just thought I should let people know I am alive.
Uni's going good, lots of coursework.
Just finished a 21 days fast and all I can hear in my ears is "last chance" my crossroad...my crossroad indeed..

Its Fran's bday tomoz so Happy Bday Hun x x x

I'm going off to go and play Canis Canem Edit Byez

"I will run and hide till memories fade away
and I will leave behind a love so strong"

Why should I frown I know myself after all.

The first time I say no to helping anyone with anything and I get hated for it. Funny that eh!
I would bother to explain, but its time wasting and I don't like wasting time.
Also I thank the way my mother brought me up, because her ways have been drummed into me and give me a certain overall calm when needed.

On to funnier moments this girl in south central who wearing some tutu esq skirt
decided she would get down on the floor with her friend and would slither their way across the floor and simulate sex on the rather hard surface (get it rather hard surface) it was pretty funny. I just happened to come out with "Kazzie everytime she bends over I can see her throat" to which Kaz cracked up laughing.Then the second quote of the night was "I felt like I was giving her a hysterectomy with my eyes". honestly we could see her knickers and her fellow friend who was also trying to be sexy on the floor and failing miserably boob's were hanging out.

I know this must seem like the creme de la creme for most guys but honestly it was off putting and frankily quite scary.Then they had the audacity to start fights with people when they were going after everyone's boyfriends and trying to touch them up. Perfect.

I've started back uni... it was okay I guess. and its 3 in the morning and I must sleep or I will go into my lecture feeling like crap.

Love you all x x x

I miss your hugs... you know who you are.


I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
& Nobody's gonna bring me down today They can say all they wanna say about meBut I'm gonna carry on Keep on singing my songI'm human, I ain't able to pleaseEveryone at the same time, so now I findMy peace of mind living one day at a timeI'm human and I answer to one godIt comes down to one loveUntil I get to heave aboveI've made the decision Never to give upTil the I day I die no matter whatI'm gonna carry on & keep on singing my song.....
- Christina Aguilera Keep on singing my song

Oooooh oooh Out going note not that I watch wrestling any more but... My baby is back. Chris jericho *swoons* Minus the vest and some slight cheesy lines. He is as good as ever.