Seventeen days...

Okay just been listening to Seventeen days a new track from the new 3doors down album Seventeen days. May I just say I have fallen in love with the song...its so cute. I heard it the first time and it really brings up all that emotion. Anyone who doesn't even know who I am talking about go here 3doors down website and listen to the songs while the website loads. If they don't load automatically press play in the player in the topleft corner. Live for today sounds good as well. 3 DOORS DOWN ARE BACK YEY!!!!

Um bored at college aint got nothing to do. Actually that's a lie I am procrastinating because I have my personal statement to finish and some essay question to do for nick and John. So yeah I should get to it...*whines* I can't be bothered.

Char did my nails yesterday, so they are all girlie and everything purple and just cute. *ADMIRES* They are so shiny..... Okay you now can tell how bored I am. I am just sitting here chatting random crap on this computer to myself...well not to myself but to you guys....you lot get me right....I thought not lol

Still pondering over going to see Staind. I know they are like my best band but can I be that irresponsible and put all my duties of taking care of my mum, to go to a gig. No I didn't think so. Plus, I don't how much she can take..really I think she is swinging by a thread. well not exactly that bad, but you can tell she just wants this over and done with. Oh anyone who wanted me to piss off from their and not to live in london anymore, which is yey for me. My mum might and this is a big might move us to kent...she only has a few days to decided and she says whereever she feels she will go in London, it will just remind her of her past. I feel the same the way too. Everywhere time I see somewhere that brings back a memory I start seeing it and it drives me nuts. I want somewhere where I can start writing new memories that don't piss me off.

So hmmmmm I wanna go to the sound tonight and check out the new unsigned bands that (blog unfinshed)

We got fun, We got spirit. Got your ass and we are gonna kick it.

so guys what have I recently been upto you only wonder. Well not too much really. Just been hanging out with the gang alot and trying to bust my ass to get into uni. Boy I have never seen me actually work so hard. So I have to finish of my personal statement and then give 15 pounds out of my hard earned money and then send that form off to my different universities out there. Please whatever you do love me uni's I have already had sussex decline me not you lot too. Sussex may have been my dream university to go to but I guess I have to get with the fact that I am not going today, tomorrow or the next.

Hmmm had something really creepy happen to me recently and everyone has pretty much asked me this because of my screen name on Msn but um yeah me and charlotte was on a bus and she was going home so she got o at Peckham and I was left on the bus. This bus was getting empty towards the end of its stop and at this stop I normally get off an get onto another bus which takes me straight home. So I sit there minding my buisness and to mention that there was only me and this guy and two other guys at the back of the bus. I'm just seeing his hand moving furiously up and down and his bag covering his pelvic aread. Now the bus came to some kind of halt and the bag fell onto the floor and I looked over at the guy and there he was just looking at me, eyes fixed and was just wanking away. I was like WTF???? I just was so embarrassed started looking out of the window. but because it was night time I could still see the reflection of his penis and his hand and he was just still looking at me. I just fucking didn't know where to look. The bus got to Dulwich and I got off and he got off too still looking at me. He walked across the road and I though yes he was gone, but then the perverted fucker crossed over the road, walked towards the pub and just stood there looking at me. I still just can't get the thought of it out of my head it is just really terrible. It had been haunting me for days but now I am getting used to it. I guess and I am starting to joke about it.

Um starting my media film production again. This time I will not be laggin in coursework and I am not gonna let my dad affect my sense of direction or determination. So I have emmmanuel, marilyn and Sufia in my group. We are seeming quite the funny team since the only production Emmanuel wants to do is making a porn movie starring me and marilyn. He actaully told us this and we were just like urgh can you just not please. We have decided that our production is just gonna be about some ordinary guy, who gets a letter he is not supposed to get and lands himself in some deep doodah. So when it's finished and if I can I will put thge finished piece up on here for you guys to watch. Wanna take a picture of my group and just show you guys.

Went shisha with the guys on friday. The guys meaning Sufia, Jasmine and Charlotte. Me and Sufia were so fucking light headed and just out of it we were feling sick in the toilets, we couldn't walk properly. Sufie was overly horny and I was kind of the same, except I had to go all the way to hackney if I wanted to get any lol.
Jasmine was laughing her head off at us 'cus apparently we should of had so much. The funniest part was we were so out of it and feeling sick when we came back inside to sit down and listen to music me and sufia still had more. *shakes head* Yeah I know me and Sufie are quite the crazy pair.

Fran has been kicking my arse on Yahoo pool so badly. I mean I have to win against her. My competitivness has just reached a whole new level I have to at least beat her like she beat me. For two hours straight this girl wiped the floor with me. I have to practice for pay back.

Been writing few more songs recently and recording them and sending them to david he likes entertaining himself and making up bass riffs to them. So I let him. I miss David. I miss having him just to basically be around. *shouts* COME BACK FROM UNI!!!!!!

Went to philips the other week to straighten his hair. So me and Charlotte went over there and attempted to straighten his hair. It was quite funny we kept on burning him and just laughed when he yelped. Um He was talking to Georgie and I think the other person was Michael. But it was funny because they made Philip rate charlotte right infront of her and he was like... "she is like 9. something on the Philip rictor scale" I was just like can he just not please. Then Charlotte got in an argument with Georgie down the phone which was entertaining. At one point I was standing right infront of him and because I was leaning over to do his hair he like "breasts" "breasts" I kind of just calmly walked out of his line of view. God my chest aint that bloody entertaining it's not like I'm Jordan.

Ooh by Mark and Anthony (excluding girlriends) I have the best butt and breasts otu of the girls, which I didn't believe because come on Martha had an arse (not to be gay or anything) and Kaz has tits.

Me and chris watched Late night raw a couple of weeks ago. That was really fun. I enjoyed myself. I had so MUCH fun that I didn't end up going to college the next day. He didn't go to work either. We just lazed around in bed for hours. Laughing and joking it felt nice. So did other things too but lets just not go into that, not to mention that he had that r'n'b track "Grind with me" by pretty ricky on repeat.I love the bass on that track, not be all funny but it is a song that puts you in the mood and he knew that. You can listen to the track>>>>here<<< if you have never heard it before He didn't want to let me go home. I was at the train station and he wouldn't let me get on the train he just kept on hugging me and pulling me away from the platorm towards the train station exit while saying in a very cute whiny voice "stay with me". Lord knows I wanted too but I couldn't so I tried my hardest to ignore him. I meant to go and see him either this saturday or Sunday, I don't know, I might be working both days. Still we are denying that we are going out. lol. Not that I don't mind because that means I HAVE certain freedom, although I feel guilty when I do think of anyone else in that kind of way but him. You've poisoned me bowy.

So I am just gonna go to bed now because I am tired and I need to get up at six in the morning today because I have an early english lesson. I haven't got the reading text so this should be really interesting. Mr Tidey is going to kill me.

Anyway see ya guys later.

Btw....I took some shots of myself because creativity has become a cure to my boredom so here are just some. Message to Chris and Jasmine. No this is not part of my soft porn collection. Okay. Plus I look 12 in one of them.
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A six o'clock beauty.

Well um yesterday at 6' o clock on the dot on the 6th of October. Azera delivered an 8 pound 5 baby to the name of Shania. It was cute yesterday me and Sufia came and she was already going into labor with random contractions that started at 4 in the morning. So my mum took her to the hospital and they brought back home, saying come back in a few hours and then she will be more dilated. So she came home and we had to try and force her to sleep and make her eat, which she didn't. She eat a bowl of rice krispies and said she was in too much pain and couldn't eat anymore. So they took her back to the hospital. So I go to pick up Sufia and take her to the hospital. So me and sufie get there and Azera is as high as ever can be. She had been having gas and air and was signing bob the builder. Ah it was funny. They gave it to her so she could deal with the contractions because they are painful. So mym mum was her birthing partner. So me and Sufia were getting thirsty and went to go and get drinks. We come back to get sufias stuff and there was Azera screaming her head off. Lets just say she was getting the erge to push. Take in my she had only had gas and air, no pain relief or pain killers… nothing like that. So they tell us to step outside. So we stayed outside, while I guess my mum got geared up to be her birthing partner. Outside the door all we could hear was Azera screaming. There was one time when she screamed in a very weird was "uuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaahhhhhhhIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII…WANT TO PUSH" Me and Sufia just looked at each other like ….uh …okay. Both crossing our legs like we were feeling the pain for her. So a couple of nurses told us to step away from the door and wait like in the waiting area so we did…. for 2 or three hours. While me and Sufia sat in the waiting room, we talked of us being in her position in a few years time. At one point, which is why the had to close the door, from the back of the labor ward where Azera was we heard the most screeching yell of all time. Yep it was her.
So me and Sufia wandered around the ward and listen to the choir that was women giving birth. Then passed by Azera's door when we heard. "she's out…well done" we looked at our watches and it was exactly six. She was born and she is such a cutie. I took pictures of her lookie…..>>>>before shania's birth>>>>

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Isn't she just a sweetie. Oh look at me going on chic like on you guys. I'm sorry but she really is a cutie.

I came home about a few minutes to ten and I am really tired I'm just trying to regain my energy back, cus that day took a hell out of me and my mum. since Azera was swearing blindly and grabbing on to my mum's clothes, would have broke my mums hand etc… lol

So anyways I'm gonna go and do something alright byesxxx

You just got served... *laughs*

What else can I say either than I am so happy right now. Let's just say things that were bottled up in the back of my mind that I didn't talk when I had the chance to, was let out yesterday and I was sooo happy. Some one got served seriously yesterday and got told about themselves and Anarchys Angel is back and operation SDD is on and running. Hey, I tried to be civil but civil goes down the drain after a while. All I can say is: 1 down 3 to go. Hey I may have got blocked or deleted or both, but I am happy. that least I got out how much of a fucking twat this person is. All I needed to do to complete my quest is see this person and deliver a nice right hook.Chris was very proud of me for actually approaching it the way I did 'cus I was copying and pasting the convo to him. I can truly say I had fun doing that. T'was a blast. All I can say is: Pic


So what else did I do yesterday? Went to film theatre yesterday, it was really good and the mini films that were shown were very interesting, especially the one that had to poodles doing exercise and the woman's body physique was exactly like the poodle. Now only a thick person or slightly crazy would pick this theme, but it went well with the production and was just utterly cool. We also watched "coffee and cigarettes" which was strange and just weird in general. Emmanuel just kept on attacking me and Marilyn. I got so many sore sport on my arm because of that boy. Talked to Fran practically the whole of yesterday, just about random stuff. We just admired other people's drawings on DA and cried because we could never draw like them, although Fran is a wicked DA artist who is just under praised.

Azera's due date has left gone and left her and still she hasn't given birth. But she is starting to have he show, which is an indication that it is hours before labour she is getting all excited and stuff and I'M JUST LIKE YEY FOR YOU.

The case against my dad has been completely dropped. When I heard that, tears came to my eyes, it hurt that someone who will always plague my life got free from what he did. But he will suffer; I swear he is part of the SDD hit list I will take him out. Even if I become prison bound I will do it, just to have peace of mind.

Thinking about giving the blog a makeover and since I am back at college and just trying to do my personal statement and try and get my place back or Sussex Uni, if not, then Luton it is. I just eel I need to get away from London you know, just disappear. I know a lot of people would be happy that I am going, but I think it's the right thing to do. Distance from this city is what I need. Temporary freedom I think I can call it. Ooh saw a new WWE calendar must buy since I have the 2005 one and the 2006 one has the undertaker in *woots* Plus Favorites of Randy Orton and John Cena. Why is Chris Jericho no longer in the calendar? He used to look oh so sexy up on my wall.

Earlier I was on the phone to Chris and I was telling him about the annoying clang of "we are punk rockers" he started laughing. We just started calling them "Punk Fakers" arrrggghhh that chic Nadia is a pain in the ass with that annoying posh accent and those fucking boots and skirt. Maybe I should make another list PHL (Potential hit list). I also helped him out with a little friend problem that he was having. Basically he had a falling out with his mate and they just kept on talking to me about each other I was just like can you lot just talk to each other please used the phone in the office and made a three way call. It was sweet hearing them apologize. We are going out this weekend to watch something, maybe hang out at the arcade again or having a…(I know this is going to be sad) DOA OR Tekken Tag tournament or a link up pokemon battle with joint gameboys,which he always kicks my ass on because he gives me his pokemon Yellow game and has craply trained Pokemon. One thing about my chrissy -boy he is a sore loser lol and the worst thing is he knows it.*tuts* miss you.

Might be going to America in Christmas. Okay so its another year away from England at the holiday season. Ah well, could be fun. I'll be getting cheap clothes and all sorts so it will be good. Okay so I'm going to go now I gotta be up for six and its 01:46 in the morning, missing my memory stick terribly lol. see ya later guysxxxxxxxxxxx

Cordie got sugar and spice and all things nice *smiles*

Hmm hey guys I haven't done one of these rediculous and very stupid quizs recently. Not that I had to do much but bascially, put my name in there and then it gives you the recipe to make you. Now read this don't you think this is so me...

How to make a cordie

Ingredients: 1 part anger 3 parts crazyiness 3 parts empathy

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of emotion and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Username:

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

So guys I'm at college during a tutorial not that I meant to be doing anything right now. Had to wake up real early this morning 9:00 start that means at 6:00. I have to throw myself out of the bed and crawl to my destination of the bathroom, then to return to my bedroom to get ready and then sit on a bus for an hour and then get off to sit in English Litrature (not that I mind) for 3 hours.

I'm sitting here trying to pretend that I am not talking to Jenny in the silent area and getting on everyone nerves around us. But hey they can deal with it, us girls have got to talk, gig planning is in process. lol!We still don't know if we can exactly go but uh well I will go alone if I have to.

So what else, um they are moving me up with the big kids lol! well to be honest I am a big kid but I liked hanging with my As friends, now I will be plunged into A2 tutorial where the only people I will know are those who are in my english class. But ahwell I can make friends I guess...

Also there has been total havoc going on the in the shelter twhile I have been at college. Get this, a chic bernadette in my shelter is starting to become some racist fucker, and has minions as well. She actually tried to lock Azera (who is now heavily pregnant) in the lounge and tried to beat her up calling her and my mum "black cunts". I hate that bitch and I hope that she dies. Sorry that maybe harsh, but this bitch is un believable and I think that personally she needs just that special bit of attention from me lol!

Also stumbling on this... Okay the first few reads of this blog may make you laugh because this is the most sleep worthy blog ever. >>>>>>>Dullest blog ever<<<< I just had to laugh at points where he just says a few comments and then just ends the entry. You guys should check it out.

So I got to hit sociology soon and plus I don't think I have anything else to write, except what Chris told me to put in this blog entry which is
PYREXIA MAGICSZ- THE PROPER LEADERS OF THE NIGGERATION.
Don't ask me why...He wanted it there lol!

Yeah so I'm gonna go see ya later and love you all. well not all but you get the point lol!